Heart of Gold

Chapter 32 Giving In

Chapter 32

Giving In

Gracie's POV

Taking a deep ragged breath I tried convincing myself to look at my reflection. Tangling my fingers together I tried once more to open my tightly squeezed eyes.

"I can't believe I'm doing this." I sighed

After our err encounter in his office Jason and I spent nearly a half an hour just holding each other, no sounds but the rhythmic beat of our hearts and uneven breaths. If it weren't for the phone ringing I think we would have spent hours just holding each other. Unfortunately the moment was ruined, Jackie called apparently to make sure I didn't chicken out of the plan Lucielle and her conducted during our pampering.

~"I knew you wouldn't do it! Damn Gracie grow some balls and go after what you want!" Jackie shouted into the receiver

I peered over my bare shoulder to make sure Jason didn't hear-thankfully he was pulling his shirt back on, for a moment I admired the way his muscles flexed at the slow movement.

"It was foolish of me to think I could do that." I whispered careful not to speak too loud

Jackie huffed from the other end "Your such a wuss. Look I can feel your sexual tension from the diner and I know your dying to sizzle Jason's bed into flames so just do it."

I had to stifle a gasp at her bluntness, earlier this afternoon I expressed my uncontrollable urge to be with Jason, intimately. Which caused Jackie and Lucielle to concoct a plan for me to seduce Jason, tonight! With that skimpy cloth thing they bought.

"I can't." I sighed

"Yes you can! Now get your sexy ass off this phone and go do such naughty things to my cousin that I won't be able to sleep tonight because of the horrible images in my head."

Jason came up behind me and placed his hands on my shoulders. Bending his mouth to the crook of my neck he kissed the sensitive area with wet lips. Biting my lip I managed not to moan.

"Jackie I really need to go." I rasped breathlessly

"Not until you promise me that your going to-"

"Jackie." I hissed

"Don't act like you wouldn't want to-oh is he there?!" she asked when Jason chuckled as I squirmed against his teasing mouth

"I...he..,umm....." I was speechless

With one last kiss Jason slipped my wrinkled blouse back over my head. He smiled at me with a twinkle of amusement in his shimmering blue eyes.

"Don't let whatever she's saying bother you." Jason said before kissing my lips softly one more time than exited his office

When I was sure he was out of ear shot I said "He almost heard you." I hissed angrily

"So he's going to see soon, so get your ass into that close to nothing undies and show him a good time."

This afternoon I was determined to seduce Jason tonight, the lingerie, Sarah being asleep and getting off work early, it all fit perfectly into the plan. But after Jason's retreat earlier I couldn't bring myself to do it. He said he'd go on my pace but I want more than a stolen touch our hot kiss, I want him. All of him.

"I'm scared." I admitted shakily

"Oh Gracie if I could see you I'd hug you. You know Jason by now and I hope you know he'd never hurt you."

Tears stung my eyes as I recalled Jack telling me the same thing. Jason is not Ben. Jason is kind, generous, and loving while Ben is cruel, heartless and twisted.