Caring for Myself

Ch 6 - Almost There

Hello my lovely readers! I am back!

Now as a 20 year old. EW! I'm OLD!

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ON WITH THE STORY~

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WAYO'S POV

Tomorrow was the start of our clinical rotations. I am trying to brush up on my pediatric notes so that whatever questions was thrown at me, I could answer easily. But as I try to memorize and understand my notes, all I could do was stare at them. The one thing that kept popping up in my mind was the look on Phana's face about what I said to him when he appeared in front of my door last week. I saw the pain and hurt in his eyes when I said those words. To be honest, even I was hurt with what I said to him. How could I be so cruel to him?

'Wait a minute, Yo. Why would you care? I thought you were over him? Didn't you tell him yourself that you only saw his a senior?' I thought to myself.

But as I look over the past year, I felt all the emotions that I used to feel for him in high school. The joy of seeing him first thing in the morning, the butterflies in my stomach whenever he was close to me, and the way he would initiate skinship even with simply putting his arm around my shoulder or even ruffling my hair, it would send my nerves into overdrive.

What do I still feel for him? I thought that I was over him already? It has been 2 years since he broke my heart with the hurtful words he uttered to his friends. And still, it feels like it was just yesterday that I was rejected. Like it just happened a while ago and my bleeding heart still feels the strike on it. I curled up in a ball trying to forget all the stressors in my mind. I don't need them right now. I can't need them right now. But why is it that I can still recall it? I keep trying to suppress these memories to my unconscious being, but they still remain in my conscious mind, not even in my subconscious do they reside, but in my conscious mind, like it never wants to be forgotten. It won't sink down further into the iceberg (A/N: Okay explanation. This is based on Psychologist Sigmund Freud's view on the human mind. He compared our mind to an iceberg, where the visible part which is above the water is our conscious mind, the visible part under the water is our subconscious mind, and the part where light cannot reach is the unconscious mind. Now that's out of the way...)

I stand up from my lying position and go to the bathroom. I wash my face and try to get the words out of my head. I have no time for them anymore. It is not appropriate to be thinking about these things already. I have to move one.

PHANA'S POV

It was the morning after I talked with Wayo and hung out with Kit and Beam. My head was throbbing hard. Damn, I should not have drunk my feeling away from him. It seemed that the alcohol did not make me forget Wayo, it made my feelings for him stronger in comparison to before. Now I know that I have to make my move before someone takes my wife away from me. It's time to start my plan.

I got up from bed and went to the bathroom to get ready from my classes. I had a Pharmacology class at 9AM, and it is currently 7AM. I wanted to get ready early so that I could catch a glimpse of my beloved before he went to his 8AM class.

I got out of my room all dressed up and stood by the hallway waiting for Wayo. I stared at my watch and saw that it was already 7:30AM. Just in time for him to go to school and attend his class. I wait by the stairs so that it could be a coincidence that we happen to be going down at the same time. Genius right?

"P'Phana?" A heavenly voice spoke as if brought down by the heavens. I looked behind me and I see a literal angel in white with his book bag and notebook in hand. His white uniform makes him look so pure that my only wish is that he still has pure intentions with me. (A/N: Even though you don't have pure intentions for him...)