So Close

XXXVII

After ng meeting namin nila ate Ly sa MB and catch-up with Babba and Mamiii, I realized one thing. I need to be more responsible kasi hindi na ako single.

I mean if for the past few years parang kasing medyo naging happy go lucky lang ako. Walang pakialam and just plainly enjoying the moment maliban sa pagpitik. 

Bigla kong naisip na wala pala akong ipon. Paano ko mabibigyan ng magandang future si Jema? Syempre I want us to travel and I want to make sure we have something as we grow old together. And of course, I need to protect her from my dad if kailanganin.

Grabe, kakastart pa lang namin pero long term na agad iniisip ko. Ganun siguro talaga if seryoso ka sa relationship na pinasok mo and really, I will not ask Jema kung di ko naman talaga siya mahal.

I don't regret naman kung medyo napadali, I guess iniisip ko lang na she's someone na ayaw kong palampasin. There's just this feeling in me na nagsasabi na she's the one I'm spending the rest of my life with. Kung di lang din siya, wag na lang or no, I need to make sure it's us until the end.

Our first night na di magkasama simula ng maging kami was the most difficult night. I know she really wanted me to stay pero medyo dami ko ng kailangan matapos na trabaho. I don't want naman na pabayaan na lang si Pongs diba. She's my best friend and alam kong di siya magrereklamo but still, this is my business so I should be taking good care of it. Unless I train pa Jaycel so she can cover the other events or photoshoot. Alam kong medyo dumadami na din ang nagiinquire sa services namin. Dapat maging ready ako pag dumami pa bookings sa amin.

I'm just so lucky that Jema is the kind na mature mag isip and she really takes time to ask until she understands. Evident naman ang pagiging writer nya kasi sobrang into details siya. Medyo guilty lang ako pag minsan ay di ko siya napupuntahan. Kaya I'm doing my best to still communicate with her kung nasaan ako, anong ginagawa ko or kung ano ang gagawin ko. Kung baga may proper setting of expectations. And I guess medyo nasasanay na kaming magupdate about sa mga schedule and mga gawain namin.

"Good morning baby!" Bati ko sa kanya over the phone while I'm driving papunta sa events place.

"Good morning din!" Jema replied. Halatang nagising ko siya.

"Sorry for waking you up this early baby... Just want to let you know na papunta na akong Bulacan. Sabi nila Pongs baka medyo unreliable signal dun kaya wag magtaka if I won't be able to update you from time to time okay?" I explained.

"Baby, I appreciate the heads up but sabi ko naman sayo diba, no need to update me from time to time. Work un baby so I'm sure you'll be busy lalo at hands-on ka talaga. Enough na to know na safe ka... Mag-ingat ka sa pagdadrive and I can't wait to see you soon!" Jema answered.

Napangiti ako kasi ramdam kong super understanding niya talaga. Yung tipong nakahinga ako ng maluwag kasi alam kong hindi magiging toxic yung relationship namin. Pero sa totoo lang the reason why we're like this is that we trust each other so much. Apart from good communication, yung kasi yung secret ingredient ng relationship namin. 

"I know baby, still I want to say it pa din... Cge, sleep ka na uli... If I'll get the chance I'll call you again or if good yung signal, VC tayo ahhh?" I said.

Feeling ko tumango siya.

"I love you, baby..." She said.

I smiled and replied, "I love you more! Dream of me baby..."

She chuckled and so did I.

Silence took over for a while, I was just happy hearing her breathing on the other line. I must have done something good for me to deserve this pretty girl.