The Beta's Mate | ✓

•Thirty Three| Didn't tell me•

"Why didn't you tell me?" He asked. I woke up about five minutes ago.

Again.

I was back at my house, on the bed, Spade sitting on a chair next to the bed. "I-I didn't know how," I said honestly. "How long have you known?" He asked, his tone laced with disappointment and I frowned. "Eight days," I mumbled, no point in lying.

"How did you slip down the stairs? Did you do it on purpose?" I was taken back by that. Why would I ever do that on purpose? "I didn't do it on purpose and I just slipped," I lied.

I was pushed down the stairs by your ex.

Spade nodded and remained quiet. "How can you be so clumsy," he mumbled below his breath and I frowned deeper. "I should have told you, I was planning to this week, I'm sorry. I wanted the baby, as much as I didn't want to be pregnant I found myself planning out his baby shower and his nursery and wondering secret gender reveals...it was then I realized I wanted the baby," I truthfully told him and a tear skated down my eye without permission.

"I understand, I just need time. Call the maid if you need anything," he pushed the chair back and left the room. That broke my heart. My mate walking away from me.

It's all my fault.

"The baby was gone and what hurts the most was that she didn't even tell me! My own mate didn't tell me I was going to be a father," Spade was angry as the tear rolled down his cheek. He was pacing the floor of the room, his hands tugging through his hair now and then. "You should be with her right now Spade," Kyston urged his best friend.

"I know, I just need space," His words were confusing as he mumbled them. He wanted to be with her but he was holding himself back. "Look, you should really be with her and forgive her, she must have reasons not to tell you. It's hard for her to even admit She's pregnant, she went crazy when I gave her the test-" I tried to say before he cut me off.

"You gave her the test?!" Spade screamed at me. I wasn't phased since I wasn't scared by him and my rank was higher than his. "Watch it," Kyston growled out a warning to his beta.

"Yes, she was sick and vomiting, I just put two and two together. It's not her fault you can't pull out in time," I snapped at him. It was Spade's turn to growl.

"Watch it, Queen," his voice was deeper. "Just go to her, don't leave her alone, I'd go but she needs you, she was the one carrying the baby, not you. You're not even sure if she was planning a massive thing to tell you," I sighed. That got him. He was quiet and was lost in thoughts.

"I can't imagine losing Narah..." Kyston frowned and pulled me into a hug from the back and he placed a kiss on my head.

"I messed up..." Spade mumbled.

Within a minute, Spade was gone.

The room door opens and I see him, his hair was ruffled, his breathing was heavy, eyes locked on mine. "I'm sorry," Spade took a few huge steps in order to engulf me in a hug. My heart melts at the action.

He's back.

Does this mean he still wants me?

"I'm sorry for not telling you," I say into his chest. I felt like I lost him by not telling him. "You have nothing to be sorry for my love, I shouldn't have left you." I was so relieved, for the first time today I smiled.

"I love you so much Kizara, more than you can think of," Spade left a lingering kiss on my forehead and hugged me tighter, causing me to wince.

"Sorry," his hands loosened around me.

"It is okay," I kissed his neck.

I'm not fully okay but if I have Spade by my side, I think I could do this together with him.

Side by side.

You seem lost.

Follow me.

(Yes, I got this from Addison Rae)