UnCertain

Into

The sun was brightly shining on our high school premises. I unbutton my shirt and start stretching.

We were playing ping-pong (table tennis) and this was the first time I saw her up-close. She was standing right next to me, in her uniform, skirt and white shirt. Glaring at me while I hit the ball, I have to admit I am pretty bad at this. Maybe she's making me nervous.

The ball falls and she goes to get it. I follow her, forward she moves, forward I go, back, back. She gives up and goes back to the table. I take the ball and serve (I think). She stands in her previous position, my friend sitting on the bench next to her. "Dude isn't this the girl...?" he says looking at me. I ignore him then she speaks.

Beautiful pink lips open and she asks, "The girl who did what?" well she was nicer than I put it. My friend saved it, "It's meant for him not for you." Smart, but she's smarter, "Yeah but it's about me." He doesn't say anything. We leave and she is pissed off, poor girl, wanted to know.

I bet she was really curious about what it was. Sure needed the pleasure of knowing, I can only guess. She didn't follow us (not like I expected her to).

*****

Fast forward to the fourth semester. Three are girls following me and she's one of them. We reach the tap and they ask me, well one of them does, "Are you writing today?" (None of your business) "Yes I'm writing physics." She asks another question, "Then why aren't you in class?" This is getting annoying, "I don't want to be." There's a pause then she asks again, "Is Vanessa in your class?" (You want me to call her?) "Yes." I reply.

They finally leave me, the hell, alone. I decide to go smoke a joint. But first I took a walk. I come back and I see Coleen and those three girls but now with another one. He comes to me and he tells me that there's a girl that has a crush on me (oh crap, okay cute). I smile.

I ask him, "Which one?" Then he asks one of the four girls and she says, "Die meisie met die pienk sak" (the girl with the pink bag). There's only one girl with a pink bag there, and it's the brightest...it's her.

She has feelings for me? She chases her friend, is this a joke? Why is she chasing her friend, is she angry, surprised, skittish? What is it? But most of all SHE HAS FEELINGS FOR ME!? Is that why they were following me and asking me all those questions, pathetic, me and them. They were pathetic and I was pathetic because I couldn't read between all those lines.

I finally leave to go smoke. Before I do I think about what just happened, what is going on in her mind? Like out of everyone in this school she likes me? Wow that's a surprise in a way, I mean I am hot, tall, blondish hair (from dad's side of the family), I'm the hottest in the school, but that was unexpected. What was she thinking? I'm thinking about her and how she feels.

Eyy whatever let me just smoke.

*****
'Her' POV

So now he knows that I have feelings for him. They keep asking me why I ran and I can't explain it, maybe I was nervous or maybe I just didn't know what to do. (I gotta admit, that was EMBARRASSING!!). I so need a do over!

My heart is racing. They're saying I need to talk to him, go to him while he's still sober. Go talk to him, cause once he's high he'll laugh at you. Now I'm having second thoughts. I really need a do over.

Coleen keeps saying that Jay's a nice person. What happened is playing over and over in my mind. It's a moment I'll never forget. Go talk to him you'll make him smile again. I can sense myself blushing but there's nothing pushing me to go talk to him.

*****
Jay's POV

I see her the next week. I pass right next to her. She says nothing but I could see that she wanted to say something, even though she was looking down in her book avoiding making contact with me, but still she wanted to say something. As much I hate to say this, I did want her to say 'hi'.

She's not like other girls, she's different and I can sense it. I don't know why but I have a feeling that I'm soon going to find out. Gosh up to now I don't even know her name.

*****
Her POV

I hadn't seen him all day, but when I found out that he was at school I was excited and I literally screamed. I went outside, to encounter the funniest thing I'd seen all day, Jay was in shades. God how high was he? My day was made; it was like an early birthday present. My birthday was on the 20th, the Sunday.

*****
Jay's POV

I was in shades climbing up the stairs looking down at her. I felt like lightning was rushing up my body while she looked at me, I was wearing shades but it felt as if she could see my eyes through the glasses. Why was I even looking down in the first place?