I started getting suicidal around 10 years old, but I've never purposefully hurt myself. everytime I accidentally get hurt though, I want the pain to be worse, to bruise, or to make me bleed. so then maybe I can see it, so that they can see it, and I dont have to tell people why I'm hurting so bad
my dad threw water in the kettle at me this morning. He did it because I hadn't covered the fish in the fridge or smth like that. I was soaked. I wish it had been hot water. I accidently cut my finger today. I wanted it to hurt more.
I scare myself sometimes.
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