I awake in the middle of the night to the sound of our security alarm,
My mind races but then I hear them stumble in, I know there'll be no harm,
Well. no physical harm. Emotion gets pushed out of my head in this moment,
I pretend to be asleep when she falls into my room, my opponent
i refuse to deal with the emotions the falling and slurring and crying,
i push my headphones in harder, turn the music up louder to avoid the yelling, the lying
I feel like I am dying.
Every evening I hear the bottles of evil open and the demons pouring out,
I see their actions get messier and my heart fills with doubt
but I can't say you're an alcoholic without a wall of defense building,
I can't say I want my family back without her anger growing
I can't say you are just like your own without tears spilling,
too many emotions, so I let them keep sipping,
I push it out of my head and pretend it isn't a problem,
surrounded by it my whole life, it feels normal but the love comes seldom
I can only hope for better days
And for them to be at peace in simpler ways
find inspiration and motivation with a different praise,
this reality can only float on for so long, hazy.
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•honeypot thoughts• a book of poems
Poetryall the poems ive written compiled together. thanks for reading if you do <3 I appreciate any feedback, compliments or critiques! My art is inspired by life in and of itself. I try to create pieces based off of anything that touches me persona...
