Maybe I shouldn't have laughed aloud in the rain,
Or maybe I shouldn't have stayed out in the sun in vain.
Maybe I should have planned things before,
Or maybe I could have been grateful, not asked more.
Maybe I shouldn't have told you,
Or may be I shouldn't have hidden from you.
Maybe I could have just swallowed my pride,
Or maybe I could have stood upright on those leaves that had dried.
Maybe I shouldn't have seen it,
Or maybe I should have envisioned it.
Maybe I could have gently held that yellow butterfly,
Or maybe I could have avoided crushing its wings.
Maybe I could have addressed my baseless furor,
Or maybe I could have smiled at myself more in the mirror.
Maybe I don't know what is my life's purpose,
Or maybe I am just making up some misplaced fuss.
Maybe, I realise, can never understand what to choose,
Or maybe I like having all the curly ends loose.
Stuck in myself, all I can do is choose myself over everything,
Little by little, all at once for me- anything!
Remind myself everyday that I don't need a reason,
To place myself above, every damn day, irrespective of any decision.
Unclench the fists now that are punching my brain-
To stop flushing myself down the drain.
Overlap the commotion with melodies to rewire my heart-
To stop myself, with all my might, from pulling me apart.
Maybe I might lose whatever I have of me as I grow,
Or maybe I might sort my tangled-self a lot better tomorrow.
Either way, I can't afford to give up on myself, can I ?
I shall finally proclaim my unconditional love to myself today, eye to eye.
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My Random Musings
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