love me more <3

chapter 8

my alarm woke me up and i reached over to turn it off,i got out of bed a stretched a little since my body was cramped

i went into the bathroom to do my morning routine then i went back into the bedroom,i really wasn't in the mood for anything so i didn't even bother to put on any makeup

i slipped a pullover on and put on a pair of sweatpants. i decided to wear my grey crocs and i just let my hair flow,i grabbed my stuff and walked out to the living room and i honestly didn't care if aiden was there or not neither did i care if he was going to be late

i walked out into the lobby ignoring everyone,since aiden and i started sharing a room most of the girls have been trying to talk to me to be my friend and i really did hate every single one of them but one in particular stood out,leah.

"heyyy girl wassup" leah said walking over to me,i just kept my head down because i really didn't have the strength for that all around hoe right now "sis what's wrong,you and aiden having relationship issues" she said mocking me

"maybe if you weren't ran through and was the type that someone could actually be in a relationship with then you'd be able to understand" i said with a smile as i walked off. "i wish aiden could control his dogs" i thought to myself.

i walked over to ally and as she noticed my face she just held my hands and rubbed them,she knew not to ask me what's wrong because i'd cry every time she asked ever since we were little and i didn't want to cry in front of all these people

i gave ally a little smile then hugged her,we walked into the bus holding hands and we settled in our usual seats. i plugged my earphones in and listened to a sad playlist that i had created

Take me to the rooftop
I wanna see the world when I stop breathing, turning blue
Tell me love is endless, don't be so pretentious
Leave me like you do
If you need me, wanna see me
Better hurry 'cause I'm leaving soon
Sorry can't save me now
Sorry I don't know how
Sorry there's no way out (sorry)
But down
Hmm, down
Taste me, these salty tears on my cheeks
That's what a year-long headache does to you
I'm not okay, I feel so scattered
Don't say I'm all that matters
Leave me, déjà vu
If you need me, wanna see me
You better hurry, I'm leaving soon
Sorry can't save me...

*song above*

i listened to billie's voice as i gazed through the window,it was raining today and it had gotten a little cold so i was lucky enough to had worn warm clothing

we arrived at a nearby university where we were scheduled to have a lecture then we would  have to present our different views on the biodiversity of different ecosystems

i sat in the middle of the theatre with ally beside me as i focused on the lecturer,i was interested in what was being said so i hadn't realized much of what was happening apart from the lecture

we had finished and we walked out of the theatre, "alright guys for the project we'll have you in pairs so it'd be easier to give your views and we can do this quickly,if you don't have a partner however you can work by yourself" ms.Robinson said to the crowd and everyone began to scramble looking for a partner

i looked over to see that ally wasn't beside me so i was wondering where she went then i looked over and saw her in jay's arms,they've been quite lovey dovey for the past couple days so i didn't mind

she came over to me with the widest smile i've ever seen "hey um jay had asked me to be his partner but i told him that i'm going to be partners with you" she said looking at me "no girl it's fine go enjoy your time with him i'll be okay" i smiled and she hugged me before walking back over to jay who waved at me and i waved back

i found a little corner and sat on the floor,i took out my phone and began to type my views in my notes. i had decided to do marine ecosystems and i had googled a couple things to help me out.

after a hour ms.Robinson came back over to us and asked if we were ready to present what he had,this was going to be an oral presentation which i as really good at.

the class clapped as a little blue haired girl and her bestfriend had finished theirs and were making their way off stage.i was up next,i pulled my hair out of my face and played with the strings on my hoodie before getting on stage and standing before the podium

"uhh good afternoon everyone i will be presenting on the biodiversity of marine ecosystems" i paused before starting

"the species richness and abundance in the world's oceans and seas. ... Having diverse ecosystems makes organisms and systems more resilient to changes." i finished up my speech and the applaud roared through the theatre,i looked around and the first thing that caught my attention was aiden playing around with a girl that was beside him,he had his hand up her thigh and she was smiling while looking at him

he looked over at me and i turned my head away from his direction,i got off stage and walked out of the theatre i was so upset i couldn't even think straight i just needed some fresh air

as i walked outside i remembered that it had been raining so i had to stay under a shelter. "i hate him" i said softly looking down at my crocs while i played with the strings on my hoodie

"yo you okay?" i heard someone ask from behind me,i jumped up because i wasn't expecting anyone to be out there "i didn't mean to scare you i just got concerned when i saw you walk out before we were finished"

i turned around and my eyes met with cameron's "you tend to always find me at my worst moments" i said facing him "maybe i'm always there to help" i smiled a little at what he said "or maybe you're bad luck and whenever you're around bad things happen to me" i responded "maybe" he said shrugging his shoulders and we both laughed

"you tryna go back inside tho?" he asked holding his hand out and i took it,when we returned to the theater i sat beside him as ally was already on stage with jay and i listened as they made their presentation.

after everything had finished everyone was going towards the bus, cameron and i were talking a little before we got in the bus and we decided to sit beside each other so we could talk more and i got to learn a lot about him and needless to say he's a really nice guy

back at the hotel everyone began to part ways and i was about to walk off when i heard cam call out behind me "you're gonna be okay?" he asked concerned "i'll be fine" i said giving him a faint smile "okay i'll text you later then" he said walking off and i went the other way

aiden had the room pass and he hadn't gotten to the room yet so i stayed at outside and played around with my hoodie for about five minutes before i saw him heading my way and i felt something jump a little in my stomach

he opened the door and walked in without saying anything to me and i felt bad that he was still upset but how could he be? i just saw him playing around with a girl at the theatre so he has no right to still be mad

i walked in and went straight to the bedroom,i kicked my crocs off and let myself fall on the bed i wanted to lay there forever but obviously i couldn't,i managed to gather enough strength to get up and take a shower

once i got out the shower i put on a shirt with a pair of bed shorts,i felt a little hungry so i went into the kitchen for some leftovers that i had bought from the previous day.

as i watched the microwave spin i saw aiden come in the kitchen and he didn't even look in my direction "you hungry?" i asked,even if we weren't talking i wanted to atleast make sure that he had something to eat "don't talk to me" he responded and i just stood there in shock

i took my food out the microwave and went into the bedroom slamming the door behind me,a couple seconds after i heard another door slam so i just assumed that aiden had left

i finished my food and rolled over to see a text pop up on my phone

unknown number: hey🙃

me:who this?
unknown number:cameron🙁

me:ohh my bad
cam💜:i'll talk to you tomorrow i'm a bit tired rn
me:aiittt i'll catch you later,gnn

i turned my phone off and went to sleep.