Dear Diary

Thursday, May 11, 2017

I'm very sorry the way I acted last night... I was just very frustrated, annoyed. I love my family, but sometimes I want certain things to change or just stop.. Even though my parents aren't together, why can't they at least be friends? 

My siblings and me having walk on thin ice when my mom is in a bad mood, that way she won't throw her tantrums. It drains us emotionally and physically.. 

Yesterday was Mother's Day, we all got mad, it kinda got fixed. My oldest brother to my siblings and me to eat and watch a movie at the drive in, that we were able to distract ourselves from the tension in the house.

Last night everything accumulated and I was trying to express my feelings. I wrote things which later reading it again made me regret it. (I looked for the page, but it's ripped out) It's either writing everything on here or going off on my parents and honestly that is not an option because when someone is mad they say things they regret.

My oldest brother is there to always make me feel better, he's the only one that notices when I am not being my usual self. He is the one who helps me calm down or makes sure I won't do anything to hurt myself. In fact he is the one who gave me this journal.

I really wish everything gets fixed soon, the tension in this house is excruciating.. 

A/N: uhh I am bored..

1. How do you deal with anger?

2. Is there someone who helps you out?

3. Am I the only one who cries when they are mad?