Concealed Identity (Completed) [R-18]

8 : The Whisper

Why does he need to do that? - Iza

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Iza

He had clouded me with too much questions awhile back and I didn't even get to have the strength to put the talk into silence.

What happened earlier made me realize that there are some things that I cannot control any more. Sino ang puwede kong akusahan sa nangyari? Sigurado akong bukas ay tatadtadin ako ng mga tanong nina Grasha and I don't think I could ever manage to lie to them anymore. Natatakot ako dahil sa puwedeng gawin ni Gigs kapag nalaman na niya ang totoo kong kasarian.

I struggled as I placed my hand on my tummy. Menstrual cramps I hate this again. Hindi naman kada buwan ay nagkakaroon ako nito, paminsan minsan lang.

I don't have my stocks of napkin anymore. Hindi kase ako nagtatago talaga ng ganon. I buy then use right away. May mga pagkakataon kase na pumapasok si Grasha sa boarding house ko. I needed to be careful all the time. I changed clothes and wore my hoody to go to the nearest grocery store. Kailangan kong bumili ng whispers. Iyun lang kase ang napkin na hiyang ko. I get rashes from charmie and sisters including modess that's why I'm forever whispers. Without wings.

I gazed up the stands where different brands of napkins which were best placed.

I tip toed to grab my choice of napkin but I can't reach it! Ugh ang taas!

Nagulat ako ng may tumabi sa akin at tinulungan akong kunin iyung napkin na kailangan ko. I immediately looked at the man who took the napkin for me and was shocked to see the only person I wished not to see.

Agad akong umiwas at naglakad paalis dun. But I just had a few steps away from him when he took me by my hand and let me face him.

" Kailangan mo 'to?" His voice made my heart beat three times my normal heart beat.

I tried to take my hand back from his grip but I failed to do so.

Determination was all over his face. His eyes were a shade of gray.

" Bitawan mo ako please" Bulong ko. My voice wasn't that strong enough to fight him this time. Why is he here? Akala ko ba umuwi na siya?

" Nagtatanong ako Iza. Kailangan mo ba 'to?" Buo ang boses niyang tanong. Sa pagkakataong ito, masasabi kong nakakatakot ang mga mata niya. Nakakatakot ang awra niya. His voice was something I should fear for.

" Hindi. I don't need that. Ibalik mo na iyan. I'm just looking for tissue papers" I denied. And I plan to continually deny it. Kahit na alam kong bukong buko na ako, itatanggi ko parin.

Nagpumiglas ako pero maslalo niyang diniinan ang pagkakahawak niya sa akin.

" Aray, ang sakit" I complained kahit alam kong hindi naman talaga masakit.

" I'm sorry" He whispered as he loosened his grip but nothing changed with the way he looked at me. Ganon parin ito.

" Ano na Babe?" He mimicked the way I usually call him Babe. And for the first time, he called me that way. Agad akong napaatras ngunit sinalo niya ako gamit ang kaniyang malaking braso sa bewang ko.

" Alam mong hindi ako titigil hangga't hindi ka nagsasabi ng totoo, Iza. Or should I not call you Isagani anymore? Who are you Iza? Bakit ang hirap mong sabihin sa akin ang totoo? It's better that you tell me now and don't wait for me to find it myself because believe me. I'm already on the process of doing that." Napayuko na lamang ako at hindi magawang tumingin sa kaniyang mga mata.