LOVE SHOT (MoonSun)

21. Flinch

(Yeong POV):

I smile, but I feel nervous.

"What's wrong?" Byul asks.

"No, it's nothing, just... I've never been with a girl before."

She gives me a look. "Didn't seem like that five minutes ago."

"Yea, but... I had an instinct. Now... i dont have one."

"You do. Just lay down and enjoy."

We both chuckle.

I help her take off my clothes.

She touches my nipple and i... flinch.

"Yeong?"

"Hm? Im sorry, I-"

"Are you sure you want it?"

"Yes, I just... It's the first time i'm with someone after I... after I left him."

I feel how she freezes and her eyes examine my body for the remaining injuries.

"Are you scared?" she asks.

"Of?"

"Sex. "

"We just-"

"Sex when you're not the one in control."

"Well..."

She kisses me. I want to say something, but she doesnt let me. She continues kissing me, softly. She pulls me in a hug, as if she tried to protect me from the world. She covers us with a blanket and softly strokes my bootie.

I'm expecting a slap. In three, two, ...

But it doesnt come. Her hand is soft with my skin.

Her other hand is in my hair. 

I flinch a little. Hand in my hair. That always meant my hear being pulled back, so that i was more vulnerable. My head pulled back, as if i was nothing.

But Byuls hand stays still. Warm and safe.

Fingers of her other hand slip on my inner thigh and they start moving up.

I-

"You flinch everytime I touch you." she says.

"I flinch every time anyone touches me," i look down, feeling guilty.

"You flinch, but you dont make me stop or push me away."

"Because it's you... it just takes a while to realize."

She smiles. "Yeong, I love you. You know you can trust me... You just got my highest level of trust a while ago and I mean-"

"I trust you," i cut her off. I know she's trying to speak in a jokey tone but i know she is serious. 

She looks confused.

"Like I just said... it's not about you. It's in my head. My head doesnt believe it is you."

She thinks for a while.

"Okay." She looks into my eyes.

I look into hers. She smiles. And then...

"Wha-" Her hand is between my legs.

"It's me." 

She's right. I was surprised, but i didnt flinch.

"Byul-"

"Do not close your eyes,"she says and gives me a soft kiss.

As she starts kissing me, her hand starts moving. First they just randomly move around. As if she was... letting me know she's there. 

Her index finger starts circling around my clit softly.

She's still holding me with her other arm, almost clutching me, and endlessly kissing me.

I feel lost in her.

But good lost. Happy lost.

Her fingers start playing around my entrance, when two of them slip in.

I feel embarassed for being so wet, but she seems happy about it.

Her lips move to my neck, kissing my skin softly, but passionatly.

"Dont close your eyes," she whispers.

I hug her body with one arm and place the other arm's hand in her hair. Its her. Byul. My safe person.

Her fingers move faster, and her lips move lower, to my chest.

I moan, as she bites my nipple softly.

Her tongue is wet.

I feel like i might explode. I cannot take so many distractions at once.

I ...

"Byul..."

She speeds up.

"Byul-"

Her touch is harder.

"B-"

I exhale loudly and start breathing fast.

"Yes babe?"

She looks at me.

"Oh, dont look at my face, I must look-"

"You're beautiful," she says and kisses my forehead. "And tell ME about fast."

She winks.

"I was not as quick as you."

"Kay, whatever..."

We chuckle, and cuddle up in a hug. It feels intimate. Not only because we're both naked.

"Yeong?"

"Byul?"

"I dont want to leave you... you know?"

"Then dont."

"But if tomorrow... what if..."

"One way or another," I kiss her cheek. "We will stay together."

"So.. you would still want to  see me every day?"

"Absolutely."

"So... what if... if it goes wrong... let's move in together."

I smile. "Okay, but... if it goes well... how about you move in here?"

She chuckles. "Deal."

She cuddles up in my hug and closes her eyes.

But my eyes are wide awake.

I fear what may come tomorrow. 

I fear the contest might separate us.

Already tomorrow...