When a playboy fall inlove

Chapter 26

Sam's POV

"I thought she will gonna leave me after she saw you. But that's not what happen, when she saw you infront of my door... She already kiss me, that's when you open the door. Late na akong itulak siya dahil nakita mo na." Sabi niya. I still looked at him. I see the pain visible in his eyes.

"Then, why aren't you l-looking f-for m-me?" My voice break. My tears won't stop from falling. Hindi ko akalain na may itutulo pa pala yung mata ko na luha. Akala ko ubos na lahat sa Canada palang. Balde-Balde yung niluha ko sa Canada, ilang tissue yung naubos ko para sa luha ko.

"I am. I even go to your house, but your maid tell me that your already in the airport. I try to drive as fast as I can, I search you in the whole airport but I didn't saw you." Sabi niya. Tiningnan niya ako gamit ang namumungay niyang mga mata. Please, don't look at me like that.

"B-Bakit h-hindi mo ko sinundan sa Canada?" Sabi ko. If he truly looking for me. Susundan niya ako sa Canada at mag explain siya sakin.

"I didn't know were you going, Your parents is not in your house. Your maids don't tell me anything, I even go to Ashton even if I'm mad at him but I know, I deserved his punch. He didn't know were are you too. I even hired an private investagator, I don't care if I lose all the money than losing you. But... your all clearead ni hindi ka ma trace ng private investagator ko. At hindi rin nalaman kung saan ka pumunta." Napaupo siya sa upuan niya. I want to go to him, But I couldn't because it's not right. Going to him is also going to cheat on Kent. Ayokong gawin sa kaniya yun, he did nothing but to love me. Hindi ko siya kayang saktan.

"I'm sorry, Sam. I truly am sorry!" Nanghihina niyang sabi. I wanted to hug him, hindi ko narin mapigilan yung luha ko. Napaupo narin ako sa upuan ko. Nanlalambot yung mga tuhod ko. My heart is like getting out in my chest. Nasasaktan ako, Nasasaktan ako sa lahat ng nangyari samin.

Nasasaktan ako dahil nasaktan ko siya. All this years, I thought that he's cheating on me. I thought ginusto niya, it's all because of Astrid nagawa niya samin to. I suffered the pain for almost 6years.

"Binuwag ko ang gang dahil pakiramdam ko, ginago kita. Dahil pakiramdam ko kasalanan ko kahit hindi. Nadamay ang gang sa galit ko, My parents was set me into fixing marriage with Astrid." Dun ko na angat ang ulo ko sa sinabi niya. Why is he fix to marry Astrid?

"But I don't want her, nagalit rin ako sa kaniya. Sa kaniya ko binuhos lahat ng galit ko. Pinagbuntongan ko siya, palage ko siyang sinisigawan. But, I also suffered the pain Sam. And that's when a year after you left, I decided to build my own name. I sent myself to school, I never let my parents to lean me money. Until, I saw a job that's not related to any of my family's business. Pinagtrabahuan ko lahat ng naabot ko ngayon, Sam. I never work in our company. I never work related to my parents & relatives. I started in the beginning until I get here." Sabi niya. I never thought that he did everything so he can be the top 1 bachelor in the philippines. Ang layo na ng narating niya hindi kagaya ko na sa parents parin na company nagtatrabaho.

Pinalis ko na ang mga luha ko and I started stare to him. I saw how he work hard to get this kind of company he had. I'm so proud of him.

"I'm sorry din. I'm sorry kung hindi kita hinayaan na magpaliwanag dahil nagpadala ako sa nararamdaman ko. I was hurt that day all I could think is, how you cheat on me. How I saw you kissing Astrid. All I could think is the pain I'm feeling, All I want is to go home and stay away from you. And that's when I realized that, that was the last day of our school. Hindi ko na hinintay na maglakad sa stage kasama ang parents ko. I immediately, use our own private plane to go in Canada..." sabi ko. Sumisinghot-singhot pa ako. Alam ko paglabas ko agaw pansin ang namamaga kung mata sa kakaiyak.

"Ang gusto ko lang gawin ay ang makalayo sayo, When I arrived at Canada dun ako nagstay sa pinsan ko. I try to be independent there, I try modeling as my part time job. Until 5years later... I temporarily stop my modeling just to focus on my parents company." Sabi ko. Wala na ata akong luhang mailalabas. Atleast ngayon, nalaman ko na lahat. At nalaman narin namin ang side ng isa't-isa. Siguro ito narin yung closure na gusto ko sa kaniya. Ito na siguro yung game-over saming dalawa.

Maybe, we're just meant to meet each other but not meant to be together till the end. I think this the game-over for the both us.

"Can you still go back to me?" Sabi niya sa nagmamakaawang boses. Nasasaktan ako sa kaniya, he had been through a lot. But, I can't just give up the person who made me special while I was down. I can't give up the person that doing nothing but to love me.

"I'm sorry, Lucas! I can't just break up with Kent." Sabi ko. At tumayo na, hindi ko na hinintay na magsalita pa siya.

Hindi na ako nag-expect na naghihintay parin ang sekretarya ko dahil matagal ako sa loob. Kaya naman nagulat ako ng nakita ko siyang kumalikot sa cellphone niya. Nang nakita niya ako ay agad siyang nagtaka sa itsura ko. Hindi na ako nagsalita at diritso nalang akong pinindot ang up botton. Pagbukas ng elevator ay sumunod naman sakin ang sekretarya ko. Hindi siya nagsasalita sa loob ng elevator, hinayaan niya lang akong manahimik.

Siguro nga mas nakakatulong na nalaman ko na lahat ng gusto ko malaman para totally na akong maka move-on. This is what I want right? Pero bakit parang ang sikip sa dibdib? Bakit parang hindi sang-ayon sakin ang puso ko. Bakit taliwas siya sa sinasabi ng utak ko?

This is what I want right?

Pero...

Bakit ang sakit?