When a playboy fall inlove

Chapter 25

Sam's POV

This is it Sam! You need to face it. Prove to him that you're not affected by his presence. Prove to him that you'll just see him because of business. Nothing more, nothing less.

Okay! Kaya ko to.

Huminga muna akong malalim bago pumasok sa loob sa labas ko lang pinaghintay si Alexa. May upuan naman dun kaya ayos lang. Pagpasok ko sa loob ay nakita ko na siya na naka-upo sa isang bakanteng upuan. Nang nakita niya ako ay cool siyang tumayo. Kala mo naman talaga kina-cool niya yun.

Kahit naghuhurumentado na ako sa loob-loob ko. Hindi ko pinahalata yun. I would never give him the satisfaction that after all those years he's still an effect on me. Tuwid akong tumayo at binigyan ko lang siya ng serious face.

"Hi" he said.

"Hi" I said.

"Please, sit down." Sabi ko. Dahil dito naman kami pinag meeting ni Mommy so I have the right to say that. Alangan namang tatayo lang siya? Hindi naman ako ganun ka rude kaya okay lang.

Hindi parin tumitigil ang lakas ng tibok ng dibdib ko. The way he looks at me, it's sent shiver down to my spine. I never look at him before like this. Ngayon ko pa lang natanto na nakakanginig nga pala ng tuhod kapag masyado mo siyang tinitigan sa mata. With his brown eyes, we stare at each other no ones gonna cut the stare we had. Until, I realized we're here for a meeting not to think how handsome he is. How intimedating he's eyes, how he makes me tremble my knees. How he makes me beat my heart faster like you're running a haundred kilometers.

I look away, because it's not right anymore. No one cutting the gaze, so ako nalang yung pumutol. Gusto ko na matapos para wala na akong pro-problemahin.

"S-So, w-what's t-the n-news f-for t-the construction?" Ayan! Nauutal-utal na naman ako. Sino ba naman ang hindi? Wala siyang ibang ginawa kundi titigan ako. Ano? Magtititigan nalang kami dito magdamag?

"What?" I said. He's not talking what's the cause of having a meeting if he's not talking? He's just wasting my time. Sa sinabi ko ay mukhang natauhan na siya. Seriously? As long as hindi ako nagsasalita, I would avoid he's gaze ayokong tagalan ang titig niya. He really a man now, with his define biceps, perfect jaw line, with his brown eyes, thick eyebrow, perfect nose, to his light messy hair, and down to his kissable lips. How many girls that he kiss already? How many girls that he already making out? How many girls did he bring to his condo? My god Sam! Embrace yourself.

You're in the middle of your fucking meeting with this engineer infront of you. You're thinking too much about him, think only Kent because he's your boyfriend. Don't think about your ex that cheated on you, he don't deserve the space in your mind to think of him.

"As what your Mom said, we're already starting the construction of your hotel. I just want to ask if it's okay, kung maglalagay kami ng swimming pool sa rooftop?" With his cold baritone voice, Feeling ko nagsitayuan yung balahibo ko sa boses niya. Parang walang nangyari ah? Parang walang past ah? Parang hindi nag cheat. Parang wala lang, normal lang na meeting.

Ano pa nga ba Sam? Nandito ka naman dahil nautusan ka ng Mommy mo na ikaw na yung makipag meeting sa Engr. na gumagawa sa hotel niyo? What do you expect? Na yayakapin ka niya? Nag cheat na nga sayo yung tao diba? Hindi ko narin naman siya mahal. Matagal na yun kinalimutan ko na yun pero, napatawad ko narin siya. Okay na! Wala ng dahilan para maging bitter pa. I already have Kent and he's enough for me now! Dapat siya lang yung iniisip ko at wala ng iba.

"Yeah, sure. Uhm.. what else would you put in the rooftop? Aside from the swimming pool?" Casual na tanong ko. Kasi ganun naman dapat, hindi na pwede mag-isip pa ng iba. Seryoso lang naman siyang tumingin sakin. Seryoso ko rin siyang tiningnan. I remain the serious face in me.

"Do you have any suggestion?" Nabigla ako sa tanong niya pero di ko pinahalata. I thought sila na ang bahala sa ilalagay sa taas. I know Mom has a big trust to their group.

"I wanted to put a mini bar, so some people won't need to go downstairs just to get a drink. And ofcourse, I want you to put a sun bathing chair on the side of the pool." Sabi ko sa kaniya na hindi pinuputol ang tingin. Just to know him that I'm dead serious about what I just said.

Bahagya naman siyang tumango. "Okay, copy. Anything else?" Sabi niya. Umiling naman ako.

"Is that all?" Tanong ko sa kaniya. Tumango naman siya habang may tinatype sa dala niyang laptop. Akma akong tatayo ng magsalita siya.

"Sam? Can we talk?" Seryosong sabi niya. Ayan na naman tong puso ko para na namang may nagkakarera sa loob. Bakit, pag siya na yung pinag-uusapan parang nanlalambot agad ako? This is not healthy anymore. I don't like it.

"We're already talking." Pilosopo kung sabi. I don't like he's effect on me. Kahit na pinatili kung seryoso ang mukha ko ay parang bakas parin sa katawan ko ang paghuhurumentado ng puso at isipan ko.

Hindi ko gusto na sa tuwing babalik siya sa akin ay tatanggapin ko siya na parang walang nangyari years ago. Move-on na Sam! Matagal na yun pero parang naka-ukit parin sa puso ko. Nasasaktan parin ako hanggang ngayon. I try to run all of my problems before, I cry all the tears as much as I could. May itutulo pa ba tong mata ko na luha?

"I mean... I want to talk about us." Sabi niya. I saw how hopeful his eyes is. I saw the pain in his eyes and I don't like it. Why did his eyes saying that he's also in pain? He's the reason kung bakit kami nagkaganito. He's the reason why I need to go to Canada just to don't see him. He's the reason why I'm hurting. And then, I saw his pain? That's unfair! He did this mistake. He cheated on me!

Even though before that I have a doubt of him being his girlfriend but I still take the risk. Kasi akala ko mababago ko siya. Kasi akala ko ako na yung taong makakapag pabago sa isang playboy/womanizer na katulad niya. Pero hindi parin pala, akala ko lang pala yun.

"What about us?" Seryosong tanong ko.

"I'm sorry, Sam. I'm sorry for being a jerk to you before, I'm sorry if you saw us kissing but.. I didn't insist the kiss Sam. If only you let me explain my side." Sabi niya habang unti-unting humihina ang boses niya.

"I never like that kiss Sam. Astrid insist that Kiss, That day I saw you walking towards my car. When I say to Ashton that I have something to get in my car. That was true! And Astrid saw me in my fucking car. And I didn't know that she already open the frontseat of my car. I didn't saw her coming because I was busy looking for my SD Card because I want to past it to my subject teacher. Dun ko nilagay yung project ko, Sam! Until.. she started talking nonestop while me? Still looking for those fucking SD Card. And when I look at outside. I saw you coming..." Nakikinig lang ako sa kaniya. Sunod-sunod na tumulo yung luha ko. How come destiny do this to us?