Secrets ( nct jaemin )

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I stared at the diary, I found a few months ago, I still don't know whose diary it is.

I really wanted to find it's owner, because of the last entry I was super worried about them, I hope they are still holding on and are okay. I wonder what happened for them to write such negative things. I wish I could be by there side and help them through this hard time.

I desperately opened the diary, to find some kind of clue but it's still the same, I have read it all already.

Sighing I was about to keep it back, when it slipped out of my hand, landing on my room's floor.

Today was Sunday and for once I had some free time to myself, and that is why I was sitting in my room and staring at that poor diary without an owner.

I bent down to pick it up, when I noticed a folded piece of paper dropped out of it.

Surprised, I picked it up and opened it, reading it carefully.

25th November '2018
Dear diary,
I hate myself, who wouldn't hate me after all that I have done. I killed her, she was such a sweet person always putting others first and I killed her. I should have been better to her, I should have been there when she needed me, I should have listened to her when she was trying to speak to me, I should have stayed by her side when everyone left her. She was always there for me, and in return what did I give her? Nothing. I was too stupid to not realise, now that's she is gone and I can't have her back, I am realising my mistake now, maybe just maybe if I was not this dumb, then maybe she would have been here with me, we would have been eating Nutella and watching silly movies like we used to do, I would do anything to have her back, but now it's too late, too late to bring her back.

I read the entry again, not believing someone actually died because of this person.

I was beyond shocked.

I turned the page and found another entry.

30th November'2018
Dear diary,
I can't take it anymore, I don't deserve to live, Eun died, she died, and I couldn't save her, I am the worst best friend, I left her when she needed me the most, I ignored her when she was going through her worst time.
I am a coward, just because of my reputation, I didn't pay attention to her, even now I didn't tell the police about Cha Soobi, just because I didn't want to face the consequences.
I suck.
I should die.
I wish I would die.

Did the writer died? OH MY GOD

No wait I read her future entires of 2019, which mean she didn't die, she is still out there somewhere, and I will find her for sure.

Initially, I wanted to find her to make sure she is okay and to comfort her but after reading this I will find her and inform the police about her, she is a killer, and no matter what her mental state is, she killed someone and nothing can make that less bad.