Love The Way You Lie

7: MIRACLE

Author's Note:

Thanks for the feedback on the last ones!

Glad you liked that Mark stayed Addison's friend. Glad you liked the dream parts at the end :).

Here is a new one, just for you!

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CHAPTER CONTENT WARNING:

SKIP TO THE TITLE CARD AT YOUR OWN RISK IF YOU DO NOT WANT SPOILERS.

MAJOR SPOILERS AHEAD SO CHOOSE WHAT YOU NEED.

It gets worse before it gets better. Not much else to say, here? IDK.

bobbiejelly

Love The Way You Lie

Derek Shepherd, your husband, hits you- but you stayed until you couldn't stand up anymore. Your best friend Mark Sloan helped you leave him and you two had some adulterous sex. When you see Derek again in Seattle with another woman, all you want is to save her from him. You didn't mean to fall in love with her. She wasn't supposed to fall in love with you, either. But you both did, anyway.

-Addison Forbes Montgomery, for Meredith Grey

MerAdd. Meddison. F/F. Meredith Grey/Addison Montgomery. Rated E for Explicit. Grey's Anatomy & Private Practice Crossover.

CW: Domestic Violence. Unhealthy Relationships - Physically & Emotionally Abusive Addek & MerDer. Also briefly okay (non-abusive), Maddison & Mark/Derek.

*This story is entirely fictional. Please seek professional help for abusive relationships in yourself and others. Take all abuse seriously.*

Chapter 7: MIRACLE

Your head is dizzy with your private lust for no one in particular and you try not to be too obvious about the fact that you've literally tumbled out of bed five out of seven days this past week having wet dreams that send you into orgasm.

You never tell anyone, ever, especially not Derek or Mark or Archer, that those dreams were all about hot sexy women and you and not about Derek or Mark or Skippy Gold or about any men at all, for that matter...

You wonder if Derek Shepherd would beat you if he knew you liked ladies. You figure it doesn't matter- because as long as he's your husband he'll beat you for fancying anyone who is not him.

You're not actually sure where Derek is at this point. He still calls you every day, but you're not sure if he's still in New York. You realize he could be anywhere, and you're not sure if you're comforted by the thought that he could be traveling, or terrified that you may never see him again.

You don't want to ask Archer, because he'll know something is up and you don't want to clue him in.

Nowadays you sit around and do online work and try to get back in the game. You try to figure out some way to earn a living without going back to the Practice and without leaving Archer's apartment, but those things prove incredibly challenging.

So you eventually crack one day and you check your old phone again. You have at least one missed call a day from Derek, Mark, Naomi, Sam, and sometimes even Archer (from before, mostly, but also from after you moved in with him, if he forgot to use your new number).

You have no calls from your parents or anyone else for that matter. You realize you probably don't matter to anyone outside those 5 people and you're not sure how to feel about that. Well, six people, you realize. Susan Grant probably still cares about you, even if you have no missed calls from her because you were never allowed your old nanny's number.