Different Not A Freak (Jjk°Kth)

Meet-up, no appointment

As soon as I open the door to my house I see Jimin standing there with open arms. I scratch my head in thought as I contemplate the decision of hugging him. Jimin knew how to hug me, since he used to hug me all the time in college. Still, it's been so many months so I don't know if I'll be comfortable or not. Many months since I saw him also means that I miss him. Yes, I do miss him. Finally making up my mind I nod my head at him, which makes him run towards me as he engulfs me in a tight hug with his small arms.

Jimin, is short.

"Keep it short and release me quickly. Release me quickly, quick." I inform him, so he hugs me for 6 seconds before releasing me.

"I'll be in my room." I inform my parents before making my way to my room. Jimin trails behind me.

"You've grown distant again. You need more hugs." Jimin comments as he juts his lips out making him look like baby chicken.

"You're resembling a chick, a chick right now. A baby chicken. A Chicken. That's good, I like birds. I like chicken too. If I do that too, like that, what will I look like?" I ask him as I take my phone out and jut my lips out too. But I don't think I resemble any animal.

"Hahahaha you look like a duck." Jimin is laughing hysterically while pointing his finger at me.

"I do?" I ask him for affirmation.

"Absolutely." He confirms. I turn to nod my head at him. I then take a picture with my phone, with my lips jutted out and send it to Jungkook.

'Look I resemble a duck. Jimin said so.' I write in the caption, then put my phone away. Cell phones are not good.
It can end the human race. That would be bad. If the world dies then sadly I'll be an accomplice in its extinction.

"I missed you." Jimin said making me break out of my thoughts about the greater good.

"Well that's that is your fault. You unfriended me. I didn't, no I din't. But now suddenly everything's okay. Completely okay. If you wanted only a sorry, a sorry that too not for not lying, then you should have said so earlier, very earlier. You should have said that earlier. You wasted 5 months Jimin. 5 months. 5 months is a long time, very long time. You wasted so much time. That's bad, very bad. You did wrong. Wrong, you did wrong." I repeat the word several times. It happens with me when I'm overwhelmed by an emotion. When I'm very happy about something then I giggle and smile a lot. But when I'm upset about something I can't cry. I start shaking profusely or run away from the situation. If I get angry I raise my voice a little. But I never cry. That doesn't mean I don't feel emotional. I get sad too. Maybe I just don't have the same reaction to it as other people.

"Okay okay calm down. Now hear me out." Jimin said making me stop my "you did wrong" mantra.

"Now try to understand Taehyung that your autism makes everything different and special. In college I was the only one who was clingy to you, but I understood that your autism makes you less empathetic and less likely of skin ships. While people always express their emotions by saying I love yous and I care for you and stuff you don't. Now I read everything on your condition, believe me I'm a walking encyclopedia about Asperger's. But in all these things I'm only human. While I made myself understand that your lack of expression is only because of your autism it still made me question that just how much are you involved and devoted in our friendship. When that incident happened it was like a friendship test. I realized that I was at wrong for expecting you to lie. But I also convinced myself to believe that you should have at least apologized for hurting me. When you never did that, it really hurt me. It made me believe that in the end I was just another human being you were trying to bear with. That in the end it was only me that cared. Even after I threw a tantrum and asked you to never contact me again, you never said anything in protest. You walked away from me like I never mattered. But when you called me yesterday, it was like a ray of new hope for me. You said that you were sorry for hurting me but you were not sorry for not lying for me. That made me realize that my anger was a misunderstanding. I know now that you care. If you could express it then you care." Jimin explained tearing up. There were tears welling in his eyes.