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Part 25

"Why are you here?" I folded my arms and stubbornly raised my chin at him.
I made it sure that I kept my voice in control and my distance away from me. Pete knows, I want to run my arms to him and tell how much I missed him.

You don't even have the decency to apologize to my face and now you come here consoling me from getting drunk?" I waved my hands over my face between us. My sight blurry but I can still manage to stand up straight and talk sober. " you don't get to touch me like that!"

" It wasn't like that. " He closed his eyes as if it pained him to even explain to me the situation. His arms gripped. I can feel veins protruded on his temples and hands from fisting so tightly. He parted his lips about to say more but I beat him to it.

"Then, what is it, then? Huh?" I acccussingly pointed my finger at him. I ran my hands on my hair frustratingly and looked at him breathing as if I chased someone a hundred times over and over again. "Gosh, I can't believe I let you did a number on me and then this happened. Im such a fool!"

"Cassy, you have to understand that it was an arranged marriage."

"What is it with arranged marriage? It is a poor excuse. I don't understand it! You left me remember? I waited on you and you didn't come back or even explained to me what happened."

" There are things going on at home that I cant just explain to you. Dad wanted me to be with her. I don't"

" Then what are you here for? Telling me all these? All these things were put to waste? All that we've been together were just for nothing? Huh?" I closed my eyes and bitterly said. "Leave. Why would I waste my breath on you when you already got someone else."

"Last night wasn't a mistake. " Xavier started to explain. "I was- I can't- christiana and I- "

He ran an exasperated hand over his hair and smacked the walls next to him. He was breathing hard. He swallowed a lump of his throat and mutter a curse.

When he caught his breathing calmed down. He sadly smiled and looked at the ground. "I didn't know it was gonna end like this. I swear to you I didn't planned all this."

" well you could have gave me a ring telling me that you wanted to break off. I would had been okay with that."

He looked at me. Pain slapped him across the face. "You would be okay with us breaking off?"

"You are gonna leave and be back for friday anyway, I have time to get myself prepared for whatever hell, i am about to face." I laughed and sarcastically smiled.

Pete knows, I wanted to hurt him physically but I'm stopping myself from scratching my nails on him. He doesn't deserve an apology.

" I just.. can't. God knows I can't do it with you. " He exhaled, run through his hand to the scalp of his hair. Hurt flashed  across his expression. It was so unfair that even in this exasperated times he looks so damn beautiful. Whereas I, I looked pitiful, walking in a club desperately looking for someone else to ease the tension off my mind, to avoid my thoughts drawing back to Xavier. And now he stands before me handsomely alive and one-piece, how I wish to break him to pieces. " It was a family business agreement-"

" I don't need your explaination. I got what you meant. You can leave." I started to made my way to the door. But he caught me and pulled me to his chest.

I grind my teeth and growled."Let. Go. "

" No."

I didn't move back or didn't even waver from his sight. I lifted my chin defiantly and hands to my hips. The space between us is getting inch by inch close. I felt his hot breath on my forehead. I trembled even with such proximity we have been so close to.. touching, embracing him. I admit I kind of miss him but the whole part of me- started to grow numb from the fury shashaying my thoughts. I am a bubble waiting to burst. And seeing Xavier, I think it is the right time to burst into nothingness. I whisphered, "Let. Go."