Jahlil POV
I stare off into space as my mom's lawyer goes over everything with me.
"We have a letter that she wanted us to read to you. She recently made it." The lawyer says pulling out a sheet of paper.
She starts
THE LETTER
Dear Jahlil,
My baby boy. I just wanna start by saying I'm so sorry for the pain that I have caused you over the years.
I'm so sorry that I wouldn't be the parent you so greatly deserved. I'm gonna start by saying that I never meant to make you feel the way that I did.
When me and your father met I was 13. I was a spoiled white girl and he was from the hood.
(A/N THE GHETTO💁🏽♀️🤣)
Regular cliche star crossed lovers. My parents were fine with us being friends but when he asked me out in the 8th grade my parents stopped letting him come over.
They said that I was being an embarrassment to the family. We have never had any interracial couples in my family and the weren't about the a start with me. But I loved your dad too much. So I kept seeing him.
I ended up getting pregnant by sophomore year with you. I was so scared of my parents reaction. I eventually just came clean one night at dinner. My father was so furious. He ended up threatening to send me off if I didn't end things with your dad. I was coward and listened to him.
After I told your dad I never wanted to see him again my father sent me off anyway. To ensure there was no chance of ever rebuilding our relationship.
After I had you I moved in with my aunt. She helped me out a lot with you. When asked how their daughter gave birth to a mixed baby they told them that I was raped and I didn't have the heart for an abortion or to give you up. Which couldn't be farther from the truth.
When you were old enough to understand that you didn't have a father I had to get you as far away as possible so they didn't fill your head up with the same lies they told others.
I settled for telling you that he left before you were born. I didn't want you getting caught up in my families issues but trying to find him so I made him out to be a bad guy. Just like my family.
I was young with a kid and without the love of my life. Everyone I looked at you. At your big bright eyes I would see him.
I couldn't stand the pain so I went off to school to become a lawyer leaving you behind until you were 8. When I returned I buried myself in work.
I loved you deep down but you weren't constant reminder of the fact that my life was so fucked up.
I always feel this sense of guilt when I look at you.
Guilt for not being strong enough to stand up to my parents. Guilt for not being the mother you deserved. Guilt for blaming you for what happened. Guilt for not being there when you needed me.
I'm ending my life soon baby. And no this had nothing to do with you but with me.
Im the one who's fucked up. Not you. I projected my harsh views on love onto you and Malachi. Yes I know his name.
I love how happy you are being with him. I know you'll be okay with me. You always have been. My strong little boy.
I hope you always feel sure of yourself. I know that you'll be the best mommy your kids could ask for. You've always been so maternal.
Im ending my life because I feel that I've caused enough damage. I love you so so much my little angle.
I hope you think of me on your wedding day or on Mother's Day you visit my grave.
Even though I don't deserve it.
I'll always watch over you my little Jahly Bean.
- Love mommy
By the time she's done reading I'm full on sobbing.
My mommy's really gone.
Hellooooooo bitchessssss. I know this was short but it was just a little inside on Jahli's mom's POV I really wanted to do a lil more with her character before getting rid of her so there ya go.
As usual I got questions.......
How y'all feel about........?
Jahlil Mom's story?
Her family making her break up with Drechen?
Her leaving Jahlil?
Her killing herself?
Her blaming Jahlil for her and Drechen?
Her apologizing?
Her accepting Jahlil and Malachi?
Hoping Jahlil thinks of her?
Please remember to comment so I can know how y'all feel about the plot and the overall characters.
TANKUUUU 💖💖💖
