I'll Help You « Michael × Evan » (Mama's Bois)

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Yes. Yes that is Jared.

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You're welcome.

OKAY. So, don't worry guys. For any of you that care (that sounds passive-aggressive, but I'm really just trying to be self-deprecating), I am not quiting on this book. I'm determined to keep going with it. But the next chapter is gonna take me a bit.

I have summer classes for extra high-school credit (wow, so ahead of the game, right? Yeah no. I'm fucking b e h i n d-) so I'm gonna be writing the next chapter, among other things for myself, while working on my classes. The most it will take me to get the chapter out is about... three weeks, I'd say? Something like that. But yeah.

BUT THANKS FOR 1,000 READS WTF-

I mean like... did not expect that. Dang. And I'm glad Mama's Bois is spreading! It is now the Michael × Evan revolution! But to celebrate it... remember that song Michael sang to Evan in this book? Yeah... that was me; I wrote it. I changed it up a bit from the original so it would match Michael and Jeremy's situation a little better, but for anyone that's interested... here's the original (*cries in self-conscious and it's so fucking bad-*)

Get Free

You know,
There's so much I wanted to tell,
To share.

And through those nights of laughs,
And I told you I had your back.
I thought you had mine,
When it was really only a lie.

You're still here with me,
By me,
But not in the way I wanted.

I just hope you're happy with them,
Maybe they could provide in the way I couldn't.
Since now you aren't around me,
You won't have to be the loser, geek or whatever I forced you to be. (Yes, I did throw a BMC reference into my own song-)

Every song from our favorite band reminds me of you,
God dude,
Why can't you just fuck off?

I don't want you here anymore,
I'm past that.
But the fact that you left is what's holding me back.

I'm trapped in your abandoned cage,
Which you left for me to find.

But you laid your trap and left, carelessly ruining a life.

So now I just have one question,
Maybe you can answer.
Now that you're gone and we're no longer a pair.

Please tell me,

Did you care?

And oh (sOMEONE WILL COME RUNNING- I'm sorry. I'm nervous, so I'm just throwing in random jokes-),
Why did you just let go?
And oh,
Why can't I,
Just get free?

Your stupid jokes haunt my dreams,
And I miss you being my tease.
And I wish you knew,
How hard it was for me to say goodbye to you.

And I avoid my gaze,
Passing the Hollister Store.
Because those were the clothes you wore,
And it's all just behind that door.

You're behind that door.

I can't help but feel like I wasn't enough for you.
Is that true?

Every word I typed,
I tried to make it seem like you could stop me,
Talk to me.

Did it work?

I don't want you here anymore,
I'm past that.
But the fact that you left is what's holding me back.

I'm trapped in your abandoned cage,
Which you left for me to find.

But you laid your trap and left, carelessly ruining a life.

So now I just have one question,
Maybe you can answer.
Now that you're gone and we're no longer a pair.

Please tell me,

Did you care?

And oh,
Why did you just let go?
And oh,
Why can't I,
Just get free?

It's okay, really,
I found my way out of the dark.
But don't worry,
You left your mark.

I was going to say I love you.
Did you know that?
Cause I did.
I did.

I don't want you here anymore,
I'm past that.
But the fact that you left is what held me back.

I was trapped in your abandoned cage,
Which you left for me to find.

But you laid your trap and left, carelessly ruining a life.

So now I have my answer,
To my dreaded question.
Now that you're gone and we're no longer a pair.

Don't speak,
I'll do it for you.

You didn't care.

And oh,
I'm glad you let go.
And oh,
Now I'm free.

I k n o w it has a weird pattern, and it's not good- eh fuck it. Imma just publish it. I'll update soon! *nervous laughter*

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