Why him? - Montgomery De La Cruz

Ellas tape p2

"They say that the kindest smiles hide the darkest secrets and that's when I really started believing it. I saw the way your boyfriend treated you on multiple occasions and I tried to be a good friend and protect you, so why couldn't you be a good friend? After Kat left I believed you were my best friend and sure I got mad at you a lot but I was just trying to help. I heard all the times you stood up for me even against your best friends, you made me feel special, like I actually mattered. When I was surrounded by the vicious blood thirsty wolves there you were protecting me, standing between me and the wolves while half of you wanted to stay and protect me but deep down you felt drawn to the wolves as they wanted to protect you.

So tell me ella how does it feel being protected by the wolves, or should I say tigers?"

"Hey Hannah I was wondering if you wanted to hang out with me tonight. We could do something fun" Ella asks as she walks up to Hannah who was working behind her parents new chemist and Hannah smiles at the girl but the smile  drops when she notices Zach and Justin along with 3 other boys that Hannah didn't know were walking up behind Ella and they were all wearing the same blue liberty high jacket

One of the boys who had green eyes and a freckly face wrapped his arm around ellas waist and smiled down at her before placing a kiss to the top of her head and Ellas cheeks flushed red and she looked down at the ground with a smile

Ella looked back up at Hannah and then turned to her friends "so Hannah you already know Justin and Zach and this is Montgomery and Jeff. And boys this is Hannah

The boys all say hi to the girl and Hannah smiles at them

"You seemed so nice and everyone loved you. Well almost everyone. I remember the first time I saw you cry, and it wasn't the last. And it wasn't always over your shitty father"

Hannah smiles as she bounces up the steps of Ellas house and just as she raises her hand to knock on the but stops when she hears yelling

"Do you think that I wouldn't notice you sneaking out" a loud male voice yells and the painful whimpers of a girl could also be heard

"Dad I-I'm Sorry I Jus-" the girl cries and a loud whack could be heard that was followed by a thump and Hannah covers her mouth in shock. Ella was being hit and Hannah couldn't believe it. The girl had always seemed so happy and carefree

"I don't want to hear your worthless excuses. Cut the crap. Your going around spreading your legs for all those little boys around your high school aren't ya you little slut" the male voice yells and the sound of glass smashes and the loud sound of foot steps and a door slamming shut  echoed out of the house and Hannah stumbled backwards in shock

A minute later Hannah heard the crunch of leaves next to her and Ella quickly comes out of her window and climbs down the side of her house and jumps on the ground next to Hannah and smiled. But her smile was different to the smile Hannah was used to seeing the girl with. Her eyes weren't a light ocean blue they were dull and grey and her bottom lip was shaking slightly

"How long have you been standing here for" Ella asks softly

"Long enough" Hannah mumbles out and goes to say something else but Ella cuts her off

"Hey Han ready time go" Ella says and doesn't wait for Hannah to answer she just grabs her hand tightly and runs with Hannah down the street and when they were a few streets away from the house Ella finally stopped running and whispered "sorry about that. Just felt the need to run a bit today" and smiled

"Ella.... I heard everything" Hannah says softly and the smile on Ellas face drops

"I don't know what your talking about" Ella mumbles and looks away from Hannah

"Ella this is serious" Hannah mumbles and tries to grab Ellas wrist to stop her from walking away but it only makes the girl whimper in pain so Hannah quickly let go

"It's nothing Hannah. And it's none of your business. It's my life so don't try and tell me what to do with it. Your not my fucking mum, you know why? Cause I fucking killed her. I'm the reason she's dead, she died from giving birth to ME" Ella cried angrily with hot tears streaming down her beautiful pale face

"Ella that's not your fault" Hannah says

"Of course it is Hannah. It's a life for a life, the balance of nature. If I wasn't here than she would still be alive" Ella says angrily

"Why didn't you tell me" Hannah asks I'm a soft whisper

"I don't need to tell you anything. Nothing is going on alright" Ella says angrily "you don't know what your talking about"

"I think you should tell somebody" Hannah says angrily

"Yeah well it's a damn shame that nobody asked for your fucking opinion Hannah" Ella yells back angrily and by then she had had enough and she stormed off away from hannah

Hannah watched as the girl angrily stormed off with tears running down her cheeks and Hannah also had tears running down her own cheeks. That was the first time that Hannah Baker has seen Ella Emblen cry and it sure as hell wasnt the last.