Why him? - Montgomery De La Cruz

Chapter 40

Ella quietly helps Justin into her room and makes sure that he doesn't make any sound that would allow the possibility of her father waking up which would not end well for either of them. Ella gives him a soft pat on the shoulder and then grips the handle of his liberty high bag gently in her hand and takes his bag from him and places it next to her bed on the side that he would be sleeping on.

She grabs his silent body by the wrist gently and quickly checked over his body for any bruises or cuts on his body while she leads him over to her bed and makes him lay down on the left hand side which was facing away from the bedroom door and was the opposite side to what she usually slept on.

He allows her to guide him and She sighs as the boy doesn't say anything to her but it was obvious that he had been crying and small sniffles could be heard coming from the boy. She lays him down carefully and she pulls the blankets up over his body and then crawls into the bed next to him on her side and they both stare up at the ceiling in silence.

It wasn't an awkward silence that was shared between them and this wasn't the first night like this. In fact it was quite a common thing for the boy to go to her house or go to bryces house whenever Montgomery was staying with the girl and Montgomery knew about him going there but he trusted his girlfriend and Justin even though he wouldn't admit it, it was a comfortable but it was obvious to both of them that the other was in a Deep amount of pain that neither of them could express through words and they had both been bottling up these feelings inside of them and not letting anyone know that they weren't okay.

"Why does it hurt so much?" Justin finally chokes out and Ella let's out a short sigh and could feel the tears that she had been holding back all day start to come up to her eyes but luckily it was dark so he wouldn't be able to see it. But somehow he already knew, the two always knew when the other was in pain growing up they thought that they should have been siblings so they decided that that's basically what they were

"I don't know" Ella whispers out softly and she closes her eyes gently and feels multiple memories rushing through her at once and trying to crush the girl completely. It was like her own mind wanted her to give up but her heart was telling her to stay strong "but I feel like I can't breathe. Every time I close my eyes I see the flashing lights and Jeff's body. I hear the loud crashes and the sound of glass smashing. I feel my dads hand wrapped around my throat"

Justin's body begins to shake and struggled sobs escape from his lips and tears begin to pour down his lips and Ellas heart breaks at the sound of the boys cries "why does this have to happen. She always chooses her boyfriends over me. Why can't she just choose me? For once in her life why can't she choose me?"

Ella pulls his body into her arms and lays his head on her chest while she runs her hands through his hair comfortingly as he sobs harshly into her with his arms tightly wrapped around her waist like a koala bear holding onto a tree for dear life. Like if he let gone would fall and die or get seriously injured. And that's how he felt

"It's okay. I've got you. You're safe now" Ella mumbles quietly and tries to hold back her own tears so that she could be strong for Justin. He needed her right now and she wasn't going to be selfish and dump all of her problems on him "he can't hurt you while you're here okay"

"Why can't I stop crying? I-I can-n-n-t st-stop it im sorry" Justin cries into her chest and it was obvious that he was embarrassed but she couldn't understand why. She had cried to him many times and it wasn't the first time she had seen him cry

"It's okay. It's okay. Just breathe. You don't have to be sorry for anything okay? I've got you. Besides I cry way more than you" Ella says and then tries to add humour at the end and she smiles when she gets a small chuckle from him

"I fucked everything up" Justin mumbles out and Ella knew that he was referring to Jessica

"The two of you have a special kind of love and live like that doesn't just go away alright. Just give her some time and see where it takes you from there. Sure you fucked up, but you didn't know what to do. He is your best friend and you didn't know what to do. She is your girlfriend and you should have protected her. I'm on your side no matter what. Always" Ella mumbles out and it was true. No matter what her friends did, she would stand by them because they are the only real family that she has got and she would do anything and everything to protect her family no matter what the consequences were going to be

"You're the only one that I can talk to about things like this" Justin mumbles out quietly and it were as if he had to think for a bit before continuing "you know... you haven't been yourself lately"

"Yeah well stuff is just really fucked up right now J. And I don't rally think any of us have been acting like ourselves lately" Ella says quietly and continues to brush her fingers through the boys brown locks to try and calm him down and so that he knew that she was there for him

"I don't know I just felt like if any of us were to stay the same it would be you, you know?" Justin asks quietly but unsurely as if he didn't even know what he was really saying and what he meant by it or if what he had just said could possibly upset the girl

"Is it a bad change?" Ella asks quietly and Justin quickly shakes his head

"You've always been the strongest person I've ever known. I think know you're just showing it more and you're not taking everyone's shit" Justin admits and he sounded proud, like he was glad everyone was starting to see how truely great the girl was. She was coming out of her shell and while everyone at school knew who the girl was, she was showing them who she really was. Strong, brave, intelligent, kind and so many other amazing things "it's a great change. But I don't care. I mean your always gonna be my little jelly bean"

Ella smiles at the old nickname that she hadn't headed the boy call her in a long time. Basically since they started high school "you should go to sleep. I have my hearing tomorrow for Hannah's case"

"I haven't been sleeping lately. I'd kill for at least one good night's sleep" Justin mumbles out quietly and snuggles deeper into her chest and listened to the soft beating of her heart

"Go to sleep justy. I'm gonna look after you alright. Nothing bad is going to happen and we can sort everything out tomorrow and in the future. But for now you just need to rest" Ella replies

"Good night Ellie. I love you" he whispers tiredly and his eyes start to close and his breathing got heavier

"Night J. I love you too" she mumbles and closes her eyes and both of them fall into a deep sleep.

That was the best night of sleep Justin has had since the night of Jessica's party when everything started going wrong.