I'll be a Hero | BNHA x OC | {To be a Hero: Prequel}

Chapter 26: Internships Start

I'm standing at the station next to Izuku, holding my costume case which has my new costume in it, "You all have your costumes, right?" Our tired teacher asks,"Remember you aren't allowed to wear them in public. Don't drop them or anything." He drones, "Yessir!" Mina and I yell excitedly while jumping up, "Speak clearly, it's 'yes sir,' Ashido, Hoshi."  Both Mina and I's moods quickly drop. "Yes sir..." I say in unison with Mina, "Make sure to mind your manners with the heros at your internships! Off with you, now." I turn to Todoroki, "I'll be back in a second Todo, I need to do something. "Okay."

I run over to Iida and hug him, "Iida-kun! please, please, please! Don't do anything stupid. If you need someone to talk to, I'm always here... You know that right?" I look up at him, he places his hand on my head like I'm a child begging their parent not to leave, "Yeah. I know Hoshi." I hug him tighter, "Please don't look for him... Because if you die I will freaking throw myself infront of a train." I let go and step back, "Don't throw yourself into a fight you can't win... And if you do... Call me, I'll be there to help you kick his ass." I give him a large smile but it quickly fades into a looks of solemnity, "But, vengeance, isn't going to make the pain stop. It will make you feel good for a few minutes, but it won't last. Anyways I've gotta go, please... Stay out of trouble. And stay with Manual." I wave as I head back to Todoroki. While I board the train, I wonder if there was something more I could have said or done.

"What's wrong?" I stare out the window. "Nothing. I'm fine." Todoroki gets up and sits next to me, resting his hand on top of mine, "I can tell that something's bothering you." I start scratching at the scarred flesh on my neck, "I'm fine." He sighs pulling my hand away from my skin, "If you're 'Fine' then why are you scratching your scars?" I look over to him, "Iida's going to do something stupid. And get himself fucking killed, and there is nothing I can do about it. I should have said something more... Told him I understand what it's like for Stain to take away a family member... Or tell him, I care, or something! But all I did was tell him not to do anything fucking stupid! And now he's going to die and it's my fault!!" Todoroki kisses my forehead, "It's not your fault." He gets up taking my hand, "Come on, we're here." I grab my bag, and step off the train.

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"I see you've decided to intern with me aswell Shinso?" I nod, "Yes sir, and I'd like to once again apologize for being disrespectful at the Sports Festival- oh and completely demolishing Todoroki." Todoroki looks over at me, "You did not 'demolish' me I barely had a scratch. I rub the back of my neck, "I was going for internal trauma. It's actually why I aimed my kicks the way I did. Anyway, what do you want me to do with my bags Endeavor-sama?" He glances over to the wall, "Just put them there, I'll have one of my lackies take it up to your room." I nod, "Yes sir." I place my bags down by the wall, but keep my Ukelele case, "Aren't you going to put that one down?" I shake my head, "Sorry--- I don't trust anyone with Ukelele... It was a gift my mom and dad got me for my eighth birthday." Endeavor looks at me, "You know how to play that thing?" I smile sheepishly, "Yeah- I actually write my own songs too." The pro hero asks Todoroki and I to follow him into a music room,

"Play a song." I tilt my head, but comply
"This one is my most recent song... Actually my friend suggested I write it to keep my negative emotions in check."

I start of by strumming one cord per line
"I've been so good I've been helpful and friendly~" I look down, "I've been so good, why am I feeling empty~?"
I have to make sure to keep my voice from shaking, "I've been so good, I've been so good this year." I close my eyes, "I've been so good but it's still getting harder~"  I take a breath, "I've been so good where the hell is the karma?~ I've been so good, I've been so good this year~" I start strumming my Ukelele, "Why? Are you asking me why? My days and nights are filled with disappointment.." I smile, "Fine~ oh no everything's fine~ I'm not sure why I booked today's appointment." My smile widens, "I've been so good I've been helpful and friendly~" the corners of my mouth drop a bit, "I've been so good why am I feeling empty?" They fall even further, "I've been so good, I've been so good this year~" tears start to form in the corners of my eyes, but go unnoticed by the older male, "I've been so good, but it's still getting harder~" my eyebrows furrow, "I've been so good, where the hell is the karma?! I've been so good! I've been so good this year~!" My smile changes from happy to pained, "What? Am I normal or not?" The tear drops grow slightly larger, "Am I crazier than other patients?" My voice starts to strain, "Right... I've done everything right... So where's the karma? Doc, I've lost my patience." A few tears roll down my cheeks, "I've been so good, I've working my ass off! I've been so good yet I'm lonely and stressed out! I've been so good! I've been so good this year!" I do my best to keep my composure, "I've been so good but it's still getting harder, I've been so good where the hell is the karma?! I've been so good, I've been so good this year!" I calm down a bit, "Ah~ Ah~ Ah~ Ah~... Ah~ Ah~ Ah~ Ah~... Ah~ Ah~ Ah~ Ah~ Ah~... Ah~ Ah~ Ah~ Ah~... Ah~ Ah~ Ah~ Ah~... Ah~ Ah~ Ah~ Ah~ Ah~..." I think about my grandma, "Time... I know we're out of time.." my thoughts then trail to Izuku and Hito, "But what if sad thoughts come and I can't stop it?" My voice breaks as I think of my mom, "Bye... I don't want to say bye... If only I could keep you in my pocket." I blink as the tears unwantingly fall onto the ground, "To give me some diagnosis of why I'm so hollow.." I look up at Endeavor and Todoroki, "Please give me instructions.. I promise I'll follow! I tripped on my ankle and fractured my elbow, but doesn't that mean that the tour's gonna sell though?" Make eye contact with Todoroki though my vision is blurred by tears, "I try to explain the good faith that's been wasted, but after an hour it sounds like complaining... Wait don't go away! Can I lie here forever?" I close my eyes thinking of my doctor, "You say that I'm better... Why don't I feel better?! The universe works in mysterious ways..." I open my eyes, "But I'm starting to think it ain't working for me.." I think back to Tomura's offer, "Doctor, should I be good...? Should I be good this year...?"