Playing With Fire

Chapter 38: I'm Done With You

Jhene:

He'd been calling me all morning and all afternoon since I left his place but I had less than nothing to say to him.

Never, ever did I think I'd see the day Jennifer said something to me that would actually hurt or affect me in any sort of way. But her words today actually hurt, like real bad. Not because of her reasons behind it though, but because it just reminded me of everything I actually went through all by myself 2 years ago, and all because of him. Yet here I found myself right back in the same position I walked away from. The same reasons behind why I left in the very first place, I just came back 2 years later and greeted them with open arms like an idiot. And now I just felt like I'd come way too far to just run back to the way I was, to the way we was.

Well that was the last bit of bitter taste I was gonna indulge in. To be honest, all Jen done was wake me up from the dream I was previously living in and now I was just gonna face reality. I knew everything she said earlier was nothing but the truth, hence the reason he just stood there like a pussy and kept his mouth shut!

There was a reason why me and Chris never worked out in the first place and there were reasons why we would never work out. I'd just managed to sweep them all under the rug because I wanted to believe in something that would never happen again. Honestly I opened my arms back up to him and let my guard down way too quickly and now I just felt like this was Gods way of warning me to get out before I got in too deep.

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"I feel so fucking stupid Tikira, like I'm so dumb!" I sniffed as I tapped the edge of my phone against the counter top; Tiki sighed and ran her fingers through her dark brown tresses as she took up a seat opposite me on the bar in her kitchen, as soon as I left Chris crib I caught a cab over here to vent to her.

"You're not dumb Jhene, you're just-"

"Fucking stupid!" I finished off her sentence for her, "Either that or I'm just gullible as hell..."

"That wasn't what I was gonna say, I was gonna say your just glutton for punishment" she said, I kissed my teeth and continued to tap my phone on the edge of the work top.

"Well I'm something, but that's it, I aint doing it anymore. Forget him and his crazy ass baggage, I've learnt now" I mumbled more to myself.

"Really Jhene?" she asked sounding unconvinced and the look held upon her face matched, Tiki knew how I was and she knew I always said shit like this in the heat of the moment during any situation. Including Chris related ones. But this time I was serious. I didn't wanna get caught up for a second time in Chris and Jens shit, I loved him so much but honestly his love wasn't worth that much pain and upset again and most importantly neither was she!

"Yes Tikira! I know I said it before but this time I'm serious. I aint gonna get caught up in him again, he's too much stress" I stood up from the bar stool and pushed it forward "You ready to go?" I asked grabbing my phone and bag off the table, Tiki sat where she was not budging and stared at me plainly, she could see through the front I was putting up. She could see behind my front I was hurting. I actually was fighting the urge to cry right now. "FUCK!" I yelled as I looked down and threw my ringing phone across the room, the screen shattered against the floor but the ringing failed to seize. It was him again! Calling me for the umpteenth time since I'd left his. When was he gonna get the message that I didn't wanna talk to him!

"Jhene, you need to calm the fuck down that's what you need to do!" Tiki shouted at me looking at me crazy, she got up and walked over to my phone and tried to pick it up then kissed her teeth "My fat ass can't even bend to pick this up!" she laughed "Come and pick this up Jhene!"