Playing With Fire

Chapter 67: Baby Girls Story

Jhene:

"I feel like my whole body just gave up on life" I laughed a little as I snuggled up closer to Chris and mushed my face into his neck; taking in his scent.
"Yeahhhh, daddy put it down tonight huh!" Chris bragged knowingly.
"Mmm, daddy sure did" I giggled and then kissed the side of his neck. I couldn't even front on him, my baby definitely put in work, weren't no telling the amount of times I came tonight and on top of that this nigga made me squirt for the first time ever! I didn't even know my body was capable of doing that kinda shit, but Chris I don't know man, it's like he knew my body better than I did with the things he was able to do to me. I was almost certain a simple task of just walking tomorrow was going to require tremendous effort and concentration and most importantly support! Lord knows why I put myself through this. "Wait!" I said suddenly sitting up Chris looked at me startled from my outburst"...You think Kyra heard us?" I asked feeling paranoid. She was literally like down the hall sleeping in the bedroom and I'd completely forgotten all about her still being here.
"Dang you got me shook like something happened!" Chris kissed his teeth at me.
"Sorry. But seriously you think she heard us? I forgot she was even here"
"Hell yeah she heard us. With the way you was screaming"
"Oh my God Chris that's sooo embarrassing!" I gasped
"What is, having sex? Nah that's natural"
"No her hearing me! That's embarrassing" I shrieked
"Oh. Well..." He shrugged not even caring. I smiled as I began laughing at this memory that suddenly popped up in my head. "Whatchu laughin bout?" He asked as a cute grin crawled onto his face.
"Oh nothing I just remembered this one time back home right, we were like 15/16 and Tikira hot ass was upstairs having sex with this dude she was seeing at the time and I was downstairs in her living room 3rd wheeling like a little punk" I laughed "Yo I could hear EVERYTHING, it was soooo awkward!"
"Awh shit, so you was that annoying ass friend always tagging along huh? That o'lbring a friend for my girl ass bitch" Chris joked, we both started laughing.
"Fuck you, I was not that bitch!" I tapped his chest.
"Yeah you were don't lie" he teased.
"I was not! I had my own little booty calls I ain't need them to bring their friend for me" Chris laughed completely entertained. "What it's true, I did!"
"How you had booty calls when you were a virgin when I met you though"
"So what, that don't mean shit" I argued "I weren't fucking them but trust me I was getting something from these niggas"
"Man get the fuck outta here, you weren't getting nothing before me, not with the way your ass used to be so shy and frigid to everything. I just had to look at it and you were twitching like your ass was fitting or some shit" he teased. I busted out laughing and hid my face, which I could feel burning up in his chest. "You thought I forgot huh?" He chuckled hugging me closer.
"Oh be quiet I was NOT that bad Chris!"
"Yeah you were actually, but it's cool though you were just innocent, it was cute"
"Yeah and you stole my innocence from me"
"Nope. I just opened you up to new things baby...literally, showed you what being a woman was all about, that's all"
"Shut up Chris" we both laughed. I swear he spoke so much shit at times. I cuddled up closer to him and shut my eyes hoping sleep would finally come to me after the long ass day we'd had. It was still dark although it was nearly 5 in the morning so I was hoping to get at least 2 hours in before Asia woke up at her usual 7am start but Chris kept fidgeting around underneath me which was making it difficult for me to actually fall asleep on him. "I swear your ass got A.D.D or something, why you keep moving?" I asked tiredly.
"Yo I cant lay on this wet shit Jhene for real" Chris mumbled disapprovingly. I looked up at him and he had a frown on his face as he shook his head making me laugh.
"That's your fault, who told you to try and show out"
"Man it's sticking to my ass, get up" Chris said tapping my butt. Sighing, I got up pulling the thin sheet along with me and wrapped it around my body to cover up in the meanwhile. Chris followed grabbing his boxers from off the floor and quickly pulling them on before he pulled up the two bottom cushions from the couch and then flipped them both the other way around so that the wet spot was now underneath and out of sight. "Ew, that's so disgusting" I giggled at the idea of what he just done. Chris smirked "Well do you wanna lay on the wet spot?"
"Hell no"
"Exactly" he chuckled "Gimme this sheet" he said pointing to the one I had wrapped around me.
"What? I need it"
"Gimme this sheet" he repeated this time pulling at it.
"Chris I'm naked underneath, No!" I protested.
"Girl I just had my head in between your legs I think I know exactly what you look like naked, now give me this sheet real quick. I need to put it down" he laughed and then tugged the sheet roughly from me so that it pulled off me.
"Ugh your so annoying!" I grabbed the fallen cushion up from the floor and used that to cover myself up instead. Excuse the fuck outta me for not wanting to stand here butt ass naked waiting for him to fix this couch for us. Despite the fact we just finished ,having sex, that was not the point.
"You really don't want me to see you naked Jhene?" Chris began laughing at me.
"It's not that, I just don't wanna be standing here ass and titties all out like that"
"You crazy" he muttered shaking his head at me. He continued to fix the couch for us to sleep on whilst I stood there and just watched him. By the time he was done with it you would've never believed this nigga had just flipped the couch to hide the sex stains we'd created. This led me to believe his nasty ass had probably done this once before. "Aight come on, we can lay back down now"
"Why you glaring at me?" He asked as he looked back at me. I hadn't even realised my thoughts had reflected amongst my facial expression.
"Have you flipped this couch before?" I blurted out.
"What you talking bout?"
"Have you flipped this couch before? You done this a little too well"
"Flipped it with who?"
"I dunno. You tell me"
"Mann I ain't fucked nobody on this couch before if that's what your implying, with your crazy ass" he said as he sat down.
I frowned at him. "I'm not crazy"
"Yeah yeah, whatever, come here!" He grabbed the cushion that I still had covering me up and then chucked it halfway across the room so that I was now naked and fully exposed!
"Chris! Why would you do that?!" I yelled at him. He was cracking up laughing as if this was the funniest thing ever. "Your so annoying!"
"Come here I don't know why you standing there covering up your body like we ain't just finished fucking anyway"
"That's not even the point!" I stressed again.
"Okay Jhene" Chris huffed pulling me back over to him by my waist. Now Chris' couch wasn't exactly the biggest so the only way for us to both fit comfortably was if I laid down on top of him, so I climbed ontop and then comfortably rested my head against his chest snuggling him for a second time."Don't piss on me you know Jhene" Chris mumbled jokingly. I smacked my teeth at him. "I'm not gonna piss on you Chris just keep your long ass fingers outta me!"
"You love these long ass fingers inside you don't front" Chris leaned his arm over and then grabbed the sheet and threw it over us, covering our bodies completely. "Whatever" I mumbled tiredly as in snuggled up with him. In this moment, I could not be cosier. His embrace was so warm and protective, he made me feel like a little princess when I was wrapped up in his arms. I began to fall asleep.
"Look it's a full moon outside"
"Hmm?"
"I said it's a full moon outside, look" he repeated pointing to the window, I opened my eyes and looked over at the full moon that was peaking flourecently through his blinders giving the room a nice blueish tint.
"Oh wow, it looks so beautiful" I smiled
"Yeah...You know what they say about sex during a full moon right?" Chris asked.
"No, what it is it they say?"
"That if you have sex on a full moon, chances are you'll get pregnant and conceive a boy..."
"What?" I laughed
"Yeah, it's true" he smiled cheekily.
"I ain't never ever heard of that one before your ass made that up nigga!" I giggled.
"Nah, so 9 months we finna be holding our son babe"
"Maybe you but not me. I got that under control"
"Word?"
"Mhmm, no more slip ups"
"Damn, I gotta get you off that pill then..." He joked.
"Shut up!" I slapped his chest. Chris laughed rubbing his chest where I just slapped him.
"Nah I'm just fucking about with you" he pulled me in and kissed my forehead.
"Yeah you better be" I kissed his chest.
"I did just try to get you pregnant tonight though, I won't lie" Chris admitted. I pulled away from him and looked back at him like he was damn crazy.
"Why would you do that?" I asked
"Cause. I want u to have my baby" he shrugged.
"I had your baby mister, About a year and a half ago"
"Yeah and I want you to have another one."he replied
"Seriously?" I frowned
"Yeah why not?"
"Hmm" I laid back down
"Whatchu mean hmm? You don't wanna have my baby?" He said jokingly but I could hear the underline seriousness in his tone.
"I mean...not right now I don't" I mumbled
"Well when then?"
"I don't know..."
"You ever think about that stuff though?" He asked, I looked up at him and asked what, "You know, like our future and stuff, how many kids we finna have, where we gonna live?..." He trailed off
"...I don't know" I shrugged again. Truth is, I never thought about that stuff because after having Asia I vowed to myself that I was never going to have anymore kids after her. She was my little miracle baby who survived and I just had no desire to ever go through pregnancy or give birth again. I didn't want another baby. I grew up a only child and I was okay with Asia being my only child also, it meant I could shower her with the most love and affection and not worry about not giving another person the same amount, but clearly Chris had different intentions.
"I do all the time" he admitted. I looked up at him.
"Really?"
"Yeah. I think about it a lot actually"
"Well what do you think about?" I asked him.
"How many kids we gonna have, when, all their names...I just feel like the next time I have a child, I wanna do it the proper way you know? I wanna plan it and be there throughout it all, the appointments, the mood swings everything" he chuckled, he sounded so excited, I hated the fact that an experience he was so excited for was an experience I never wanted to go through again. I hated even the thought of ever being pregnant again and that was the truth. "I don't think you want the mood swing trust me, they ain't fun" I muttered coyly.
"Nah I do. I want everything man. The cravings everything, I ain't had the chance to run out at 3 am just cause you want pickle juice and cheese or had the chance to wanna avoid your calls just cause I know you finna complain about something I can't change. I wanna go through it all, I got two kids and ain't never been able to say I was there from the beginning, I don't want that for our next baby Jhene, for once I wanna do it the right way around; you feel me?" He muttered the last bit. I just stayed quiet. I wasn't about to be like 'yeah I feel you' knowing all along it was a lie. Realising I didn't respond to him he asked me if I was okay.
"Chris I don't wanna ever have another baby again" I quietly admitted to him. I felt Chris slightly pull away from me as he tried to get a glimpse of my face.
"Whatchu mean? why not?" He asked in disappointment
"I mean I never really had a good a pregnancy with Asia and the whole experience just kinda scared me so now, I just don't want to have anymore kids " I admitted. Chris sighed deeply.
"I didn't know it was that bad" he quietly added
"Yeah it just wasn't the best time for me and I just was under a lot of stress and pressure and I went through a little depression cause I just couldn't really cope with it all"
"You know I'm sorry I wasn't there for you with Asia right?"
"Yeah I know. You've said before" I looked away from him.
"Honestly That's like my biggest regret in life, not being there to hold your hand through it all"Chris admitted.
"It's okay Chris. I'm over it, your here now that's all that matters" I kissed his lips to lighten the mood. I just didn't wanna get into this topic right now. Too many ill memories would be brought up and honestly I just wanted to forget that year. Asia knew who Chris was now, that's all that mattered.
"I know but I just wish I could change that whole time"
"Baby. We can't change it" I cut him off "All we can do is go forward okay. I love you, Asia loves you. That's it, that's all that matters, so please just drop this topic for me. Please?" I pleaded with him.
"Jhene imma be honest with you, I wanna drop it because I can see it makes you uncomfortable baby but at the end of the day I'm still her father. And I've missed out on a lot of things when it comes to her and I think I have the right to know..."
"I just don't want to conjure up those feelings again Chris. When I was pregnant I wasn't in the right frame of mind and then after I gave birth I had so much resentment and hate towards you and I'm scared if I talk about everything out loud those old feelings may resurface again. I've only just gotten over everything so I just wanna move forward" I admitted. Chris sighed and shook his head.
"That's not fair Jhene" he mumbled
"Why?"
"Because your being selfish. Your basically telling me cause your over it, I must be too. I ain't even had the chance to understand what your over but I must forget about it cause you want to? How can you expect me to move forward with you if your keeping shit away from me which played a vital role in the reason we're the way we are today?" Chris said honestly. I sighed in defeat. He wasn't about to drop this.
"When I was 24 weeks my waters broke..." I began...
~ "I remember I was working a job I'd gotten at red lobster in the city and I'd thought I'd just wet myself because I knew I was nowhere near my due date so I didn't really think anything of it plus it had happened a few days before so to me, it was becoming a routine.