Through The Rain

Chapter Seventeen

"Tell me what happened next," He calmly stated.

"So ayun nga, they scolded me non-stop tapos yung brattinelang twin sister ni Jem na si Jellanah, handed dad her phone at dun ko napagtanto kung gaano ako ka-bobo, she showed dad a picture of me and Kai hugging at the park, pati yung naka-akbay siya sakin at nag-kiss sa noo ko, parang ispiya si Jela talaga sa mga anggulo ng kuha niya kaya grabe yung gulat at galit sa mga mukha ng pamilya ko, paulit-ulit kong sinabi na "i can explain' but dad slapped me infront of everyone," Humihikbi kong saad. Humarap naman saakin si Blake at ibinaba ang iniinom niya, saka niyakap ako ng mahigpit.

"Shhh, I'm here for you." Pagpapakalma niya, "What happened next?" He calmly asked.

"Tinapos na ni daddy yung pagsasalo at umakyat kaming pamilya papunta sa kwarto ko. Right after kuya closed the door of my room, dad slapped me at pati si mommy nakisali," I stated sarcastically again remembering how cruel they were that time. "Nung time na yun, dun na nawala tiwala nila saakin na hanggang ngayon di ko parin alam kung sa paanong paaran ko maibabalik. Kinuha sakin lahat, gadgets and everything. Even after recognition, dapat bahay lang ako agad. Si Clei lang pwede pumunta sa akin kaya siya na pina-contact ko kay Kai, pero it turns out na naka-fixed marriage na pala siya kay Jela, kaya pala. Ang tanga ko, ang tanga tanga ko." Nahihirapan kong sabi. Grabe, I didn't realized na ganto pala kasaklap yung past ko. I was very young that time pero yung napagdadaanan ko mas grabe pa sa grabe.

I didn't realize how strong I am for surpassing that kind of life. I didn't deserve to be in that position and I didn't deserve to be treated like that, no one does though.

"You're a brave girl." Blake's compliment warmed my heart. That's the thing I only wanted to hear from everyone, and I just heard it from him.

From the person I love the most.

"Can you hug me?" Wala sa sarili kong saad, while looking at him straightly. Napalingon naman siya at mukhang nagulat sa sinabi ko.

Maging ako man ay nagulat din sa sinabi ko. Basta basta nalang 'yun lumabas sa bibig ko. Nahiya tuloy ako kaya iniwasan ko nalang ang mga tingin niya.

"Nevermi—" I was supposed to say 'nevermind' but he just pulled me close to him, and hugged me. He just hugged me tightly.

Am I dreaming? Niyakap ko nalang siya pabalik at hindi inaksaya ang pagkakataon. This is a priceless moment. Very priceless.

I haven't imagine this moment, never.

Never in my wildest dreams na parang nakita ko ang sarili ko sa ganitong posisyon at pagkakataon.

This just feels amazing and surreal.

"I'm not finished yet, may mas sasakit pa dun," I sighed, habang nakatingin sa kawalan at nakayakap parin sakanya.

Kumalas naman siya sa yakapan namin ng marinig akong magsalita ng ganon.

"Go on, continue." He stated.

"Did you know that I almost committed suicide?" I looked at him while my tears fell non-stop. He looked at me with so much pity.

"With everything that was happening in my life that time. Sumagi sa isip ko 'yun, pero di natuloy kasi binisita ako ni Clei that time and she stopped me from doing that thing." I sighed, remembering myself crying non-stop in Clei's comforting arms.

"T-that's....." Usal ni Blake, then immediately looked away. I looked at him with so much confusion. This is the first time I heard him stutter. He couldn't even continue what he was about to say.

"You know what hurts the most?," I asked him.

"What?" He replied.

"Yung akala ko maiintindihan na nila ako, pero mas pinagalitan pa ako. They said na I was so dumb for doing and attempting to do that stupid thing. Grabe. Akala ko makakahanap na ako sa kanila ng comfort, pero hindi, pero wala," I sighed in disbelief again. "Grabe, I felt so hopeless, helpless and p-powerless..."

Hindi ko na kaya pa kaya napahagulgol na ako sa iyak sa harap niya. I hugged my knees as my tears started to drop non-stop again.

"I wish, I wasn't born," I whispered under my tears. "Maybe their life became more easier, para akong punching bag. Para akong isang presong di makawala sa kulungan hanggang ngayon kahit may kalayaan naman ako."

What I did or what mistake that I did in the past didn't sum up my whole existence naman diba? I've done and gone through enough.

Kailan ko kaya mababalik ang mga tiwala nila? Kailan ko kaya mababayaran ang kasalanan ko na yun?

Para akong isang taong walang buhay.

Ngumingiti nga, malungkot naman. Nakatawa nga, malungkot naman. Buhay nga, patay naman sa kalooban.

I was still crying my heart out when Blake pulled me closer to him and hugged me tightly.

I need this.

I need this comfort. I need this arms.

I need him......

"Sorry, nabasa ka tuloy," I apologized to him.

"It's nothing compared to the pain you've been through," He answered while smiling, so it melted my heart. "Remember, Whatever mistake you did in the past will never sum up your whole existence, okay? You are loved. You are appreciated. I'm proud of you, we're proud of you. You are more than enough. Smile always, cheer up, jagi." He said under our hug.

This feels surreal.

This is just too good to be true.

For once, I felt appreciated and loved. I have never expected him to be this vocal, to give me advices like this. This is the side of him that I fell inloved the most.

We stayed there for few more hours until we decided to go home already.

Dahil sa kapaguran ng mga mata ko at sa pagod narin sa buong araw na nagdaan ay nakatulog ako sa buong byahe namin pabalik ng Manila.

Di niya manlang ako ginising kung napapagod siya, edi sana nagsasalitan kami sa pag-drive.

Ginising niya lang ako nung nasa tapat na kami ng subdivision namin. Nakiusap lang siya sa guard at saka pinapasok na kami agad.

He stopped right infront of our house.

"Thanks for tonight," I thanked him while wearing my most genuine smile, "Your comfort means a lot. Thanks for comforting me and for hearing me out. Pati narin sa pag-celebrate with me," I thanked him again, while unbuckling the seatbelt this time.

"Kaye," He called my name.

"Yes?" I answered.

"Remember, you are loved. Thanks for tonight, also. When you need anything, I'm only one call away, okay?" He said, that made my heart jump out of kilig.

Grabe, this is too much to handle, Blake.

I just nodded and smile as my answer for him, then quickly went out of the car.

Akala ko aalis na siya kaya kumaway na ako sakanya, pero ibinaba niya pa muna ang bintana ng kanyang kotse sa aking may banda, at saka nagsalita bago umalis.

"Goodnight, mi amor,"

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