Namesake

Oops looks like I can't

"Like, Dislike"

(I like you- I don't like you- I don't know- I-)

~K27~

Me.

Well, I got a stiff neck because of craning my head for two hours.

D-Don't ask. Sigh. GAWD IT REALLY HURTS.

I also couldn't study properly. SWEET SANMYAKU.

My eyes drift again at the window. I try to avert my gaze, since that window is the reason why I am getting a freakin' stiff neck and I ought to-!

Ok, Kyoko. Calm down.

I look past the window wistfully, heaving a deep sigh.

I think that I'm taking Gokudera-kun's absence a tad too hard.

Heh. Dammit, I shouldn't be too obsessed with his guitar skills.

GAH! What is happening with my head right now? I slam the book shut and took a quick jump to my bed.

I can't freaking get it past my head. This shallow feeling of regret of not appreciating it all sooner.

Those roses...and those chocolates too, I might add. Am I having asweet tooth right now?

AH! I can't get him out of my head!

I hasten out of bed and let delirium reign, along with that subtle touch of pain due to the shitty stiff neck. The door slams behind me as I fly to the stairs, my mind bent on the vase at the living room.

I breathe a sigh of relief as I see the roses, a little wilty, yet alive and staring at me.

I stare back and frown at them. They're making my stiff neck and stomach pain worse by the moment.

They continue looking at me. Damn you, paranoia.

"Actually..."

Gokudera-kun's voice enters my consciousness... and I am left speechless as I look at the roses.

"I want to go to college too."

I'm being delusional again. A tear unexpectedly flows from my eye.

"With you."

My mouth is agape and my feet are numb, as I walk to the vase and lose my control on my two feet. I smell them.

They were so fragrant and sweet.

That was the first time I heard Gokudera-kun say such things and made me feel...fluffy. It was the first time that I actually...

I actually nearly said yes.

The fragrance of the flowers continue to make me feel so serene, despite the spinning of my head and the stiff neck I'm currently feeling.

I think I know where I'm going tomorrow now. The decision might be final.

And maybe... maybe I'll be able to clear up my feelings this time around.

God help me.

~K27~

"Turn It Off"

(I wanna know what it will be like, to find perfection in my pride and see nothing in the light)

Him.

My bags are now packed, and I promised myself this will be the last.

I look at my place again before forcing a smile.