Because Of You

Promises

Emmett's POV

"Why don't you love me?" My chest was tight. His words shattered my heart.

"I do love you." Leo had tears streaming down his pale face. He looked so...broken.

"Why? Why do you lie to me?" His voice was shaky as he spoke. He was on his knees in front of me.

"Baby, I didn't lie to you. What are you talking about?" I wanted to hold him, but I couldn't move.

"Please stop." Before I knew what I was doing, I smacked him.

Why can't I control my body?

Leo touched where I smacked him with his fingertips. He looked up at me with hurt and betrayal in his eyes.

"Leo, I'm so sorry." I could feel my eyes burn as it tried to hold my tears back.

Why did I do that to him?

"I- I" Leo stuttered but I then slapped him again.

"L-Leo. Why can't I stop?" The tears escaped the corner of my eyes.

Suddenly someone started to call out my name.

"Emmett." It was Leo, but why does he sound like he's a million miles away? The voice got louder.

"EMMETT!"

I jolted awake, Leo looked at me with wide eyes. He had his hand against his cheek.

"W-what's going on?" I managed to squeak out in a raspy voice.

"You slapped me." Leo lowered his hand from his face. There was a red spot right where his hand was.

"Leo, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to." I scooted closer to him and wrapped my arms around him. He flinched as my skin touched his. He's scared of me. My heart felt like it dropped when I felt him tense up. "Baby, I'm so sorry." Leo relaxed into my touch and wrapped his arms around me as well.

"I know. What were you dreaming about that caused you to react like this?" I could feel the vibration as he mumbled against my chest.

"You didn't believe that I love you. It was like someone was taking over my body. I slapped you twice."

My mind was in total shock. I never wanted to hurt him in any way that my father has hurt me. I never wanted him to experience that kind of pain.

"Well that explains a lot." Leo chuckled and pulled away from me. He placed his hand on my cheek, using his thumb to lightly brush over it.

"I'm really sorry." I looked down at my hands that rested on my lap.

"Em, you don't need to apologize. You did it when you were asleep." That's the issue. I can't control myself when I'm sleeping. What if I accidentally hurt him even more while I'm sleeping?

I can't riske that.

"I'm going to go back to my room to sleep." I moved myself away from him, getting off of the bed and headed over to the door.

"No. Why are you leaving?" I turned to look at him, but I kept my eyes away from his. I didn't know what to say, so I just turned back around and left.

My room was very quiet. I couldn't hear Leo's soft snoring or the tv making a quiet buzzing noise. My bed was cold. I didn't have Leo's arms around me, and the warmth of his body against me.

Being alone under the bedsheets without Leo beside me was painful. I felt alone, again. This was my fault I left him alone in his room. Imagine what he is thinking. I couldn't even tell him why I left his room. I probably hurt him even more.