Tessa and hardin reunite after tessa leaves hardin due to his mental health and his actions when they were together. Hardin left with no explanation and drove wherever his car took him. Everyone back home thinks he's dead because of his disappearanc...
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Its been 2 weeks since I found out I was pregnant and its been 2 weeks of me constantly throwing up and telling hardin I still don't feel well so he doesn't touch me. Hardins been sleeping on the sofa for the last few days and I can see him getting extremely paranoid every time he tries to hug me and I refuse. I want nothing more than to give him a big hug and not let him go but it just makes me feel like i want to throw up. Its not just him its everyone. I dont like anybody touching me at all it makes me feel like i can't breath. I have to tell him within the next few days because im starting to show now and i cant wear his hoodies that are big on me and thats it for this whole pregnancy. I've managed to do all my work from home so far and do all my meetings with the brides over facetime. I dont like doing it this way because I prefer to do things face to face but I cant say I'm ill and then socialize with people because they will think its contagious or something. I had my other appointment with the doctor a few days ago and he said everything looks fine but i have low iron levels in my blood so he wants to do a few tests within the next few days. I woke up early today and im starting to feel a lot better.Ive felt sick every morning since i found out i was pregnant and the doctor said im one of the unlucky people who suffer with 'severe morning sickness'. of course i would be one of those people. The last hour ive spent sitting opposite hardin watching him sleep. He looks so peaceful when hes sleeping. Im in a very good mood today so i decide to do something nice for Hardin.I make breakfast and lay everything out on the counter.Pancakes,fruit,toast,cornflakes,waffles and i even cooked some of those baked beans british people seem to love so much. Ive never tried them but they dont look to appatizing and Hardins very fussy when it comes to what beans he likes.The american version of baked beans are "sweet and watery" he tells me every time we go grocery shopping so Karen ends up ordering the beans all the way from the UK and shipping them over to their house for whenever hardin stays over. Karen puts so much time and effort into making other people happy ive never actually seen her do anything for herself.
"whats this?" hardin sits up off the sofa rubbing his eyes.
"i made you breakfast." he gets up and walks over to me looking for permission to hug me.I dont refuse this time.He's been so patient with me and if it means i will throw up after holding him in my arms for a few minutes then so be it.
"I missed you." i can see how relieved he is by his deep sigh as i wrap my arms around his shoulders playing with his hair in my fingers.
"i missed you too." i can say 'too' because i agree with him. i did miss him. He leans in to kiss me and his tounges presses for entry,i open my mouth giving him access. He groans at the relief of having my mouth on his again.He pulls me closer to him so our chests are flush and walks me back towards the counter. His mouth trails down my neck and he stands inbetween my legs. His fingers press into the sides of my hips.
"Hardin.wait.stop." i take a second to calm myself down. He's alarmed by my response. A sharp pain spreads from my lower stomach all the way down my back.It feels exactly like a period cramp but worse. I get off the counter and quickly walk to the bedroom, I lock the door so hardin wont come in. I can tell something is wrong by how bad the pain is. i sit down to try and ease the pain but it doesnt help. I decide to run a hot bath to hopefully ease the cramp.I turn on the tap on and walk back into th bedroom. Blood stains the sheets were i was sitting and i look down at myself. I start to shake when i go to the toilet and realise whats happened. I knew the possibility of this happening and im relieved i havent told hardin yet eventhough hes probably still in the kitchen thinking about what the fuck just happened. I need to clean myself and everything up so hardin wont know.I take the sheets off the bed and clean myself up before getting into the bath. The hot water suddenly doesnt seem to do anything at all. The pain of knowing i just lost my child overtakes me and i cant help but just cry. My hands are still shaking and i try to stay quiter so hardin doesnt hear me but im failing miserably so i turn the tap on again to muffle my sobs.
