kenma x kuroo: whats a soulmate ?

talk (Kenma's POV)

i hear a knock at my door. "Kenma, get out of bed. go eat breakfast". i groan and roll over in my bed. light shines through my window directly onto my face. i cover my eyes with my forearm. i don't wanna get up. i don't wanna do anything. Kuro probably hates me now. that's all i can think about. he knows now, and probably thinks i'm weird and hates me.

i still haven't told my mom about the whole Kuro-overhearing us situation. every-time i think about it my whole body heats up with embarrassment. i lay around for a while longer before actually sitting up. i stand up and stretch my legs a bit before sitting back down.  it's been about 4 days since the situation. thank god we've been off of school for the past couple days. now i don't have to run into him at all.

my phone suddenly rings with a call from Lev. the noise makes me jerk my head quickly to look. i swing my arm over to decline it. god. he's so needy. even after he caused all of this. he's trying to fix things, but he just cant. there's no way to fix it.

i've been trying to keep my mind off everything by doing other things like sleeping and playing video games. i stand up and make my way to my ps4. i gently click it on and go back to sitting on my bed.

i start to pick a game, when i feel something vibrating next to me. lev. again? seriously? does he not get that i'm ignoring him on purpose. i almost feel bad, he's really trying to help. i press decline again.

i reach back onto my controller and search for a game to play. i finally find a game that's somewhat long but entertaining. i stare at the screen, playing competitively with myself for 45 minutes before i'm interrupted. i look up in annoyance. why does everyone keep interrupting my games today.

"kenma!" my mom calls up to me. "i'm leaving for the week for a work trip ! have kuroo here the week so you aren't alone!".

yea no. that sounds like the worst idea right now. there's no way i'm gonna do that. her bringing him up makes me think about him. i think about how beautiful his black messy hair is. and how i wanna run my fingers through it. and how cute his voice is, especially when he's tired and it gets all raspy. how it feels to sleep next to him and see how close he is.

no no no. i can't keep thinking about him! i groan loudly and slam down onto my bed. i cover my face with my palms. my head feels empty and numb. i turn to my side and look at my wall blankly. i grasp onto my arms and roll over. i really do wanna run my hands through his hair. really bad. and i wanna touch my lips to his.

i shake my head. i quickly sit up and pick up my controller again to distract myself. i really need to. after a couple of hours playing, i finally start to forget about Kuro and focus on my game. i get that fuzzy feeling in my brain where everything feels blurry. that's exactly what i needed right now.

i play for hours more before someone knocks on the door. i jump back, startled at the unexpected noise. but i just shrug it off and get back to playing. it's probably just a package or something. i start to get back into my game, when not even 2 minutes later i hear another knock. ugh my mom isn't even home. go away. i put on headphones and turn them all the way up in an effort to drown it out. i lay back on my bed, blasting the music into my ears before i hear something.

i rip off my headphones and sit up.

"Kenma? are you home?"

i grasp my bed, going into shock. it's Kuro. what is he doing here? i cannot see him right now. maybe if i just ignore it he'll go home. i wait, hoping he'll just turn around and leave. but he doesn't. i soon hear him opening the door. shit. he has the key. i silently listen to him trot up the stairs.

i get a tight anxious feeling in my chest and throat. i'm sweating like crazy and my heart is pounding. he's at my door. then, without hesitation, he knocks on my bedroom door.