need - charli d'amelio

1 - sleepless night

y/n pov

I found myself lying in bed, not being able to sleep.

she just doesn't leave my mind.

I wish she was here, beside me.

I always sleep better when she's next to me.

oh my god I did it again.

"y/n stop thinking about her!" I whisper yelled to myself.

I tried to gather my thoughts.

but all I could think about was Charli.

she wouldn't leave my mind.

no matter what I tried she kept crawling her way back into my thoughts.

oh shit.

Charli.

her and Dix are picking me up for school!

I checked the time on my phone.

"6 am??" I said quietly to myself.

I didn't even get half an hour of sleep.

fuck.

I have to get ready because they come to pick me up at 7:30 am.

"I have an hour and a half, that's enough." I again whispered to myself quietly.

usually I get up at 6:30am but I needed to get out of my bed.

maybe that'll make me stop thinking about her, I will have something to do and that'll keep me busy.

I got up from my bed and slowly opened the door to my room, making sure it won't make a noise.

I looked around in the hallway and saw that my mom isn't in her room.

she usually is already on her way to work at this hour but when I get up early like today, which is a very rare sight, I make sure to check if she's home so I can give her a hug before so goes to work.

oh, that reminds me, I should probably turn my alarm off, so it won't go off later and wake my little brother up.

he has his own alarm set because he starts school later than me.

(covid-19 doesn't exist in this btw)

I sneak down the stairs very slowly and quietly, trying to avoid making any noise.

I walk to the kitchen, and to my surprise, my mom is there.

"good morning mom" I say quietly.

"oh my god y/n you scared me" my mom says trying to keep herself from laughing.

"good morning to you too y/n/n, why are you up so early?" she says sounding concerned.

I'm thinking of what to answer.

do I lie?

do I tell the truth?

I don't know how she'll react.

I don't want to worr-

"y/n? are you okay?" she cuts my thoughts off.

"yeah I guess I couldn't fall asleep last night and before I knew it, it was 6am" I said back to her.

"oh well why do you think that happened?" she asked concerned.

"I don't fully know I guess. I just felt like something was missing and couldn't figure it out" I told her.

I decided to tell her half the truth, I mean, I wasn't lying I just kept some of the truth to myself.

"so, you didn't get any sleep at all?" my mom asks.