Edward x Envy (A Full Story)

Chapter 9

Envy's POV:

I try my hardest to go to sleep. It's already 1am, there's no way.
Not that I need to sleep anyway; I'm a homunculus. It just makes me stronger.

I decide to leave our quarters and head for a walk. It wouldn't hurt. I just need to wrap my head around what Greed's told me. A crush on the little alchemist? Impossible. Plus, he's probably straight.

NOT that it matters! I don't give a shit about him. He's the enemy, the enemy gets killed.

That's what I keep telling myself, of course. A small part of me thinks we could actually be friends... or more.
Fuck what Greed thinks. He's just confusing the hell out of me. I shouldn't have spoken to him in the first place.

I've been walking outside for a while now, and after being so lost in my thoughts, the unimaginable happens. I find Edward. Walking. In the alley next to me. On one hand, I could talk to him about this and nobody would know. On the other hand, I could kill him and prove to Lust I'm not an idiot. I inevitably pick the latter.

"Hey Ed." I approach him on the street.
"I ...uh... wanted to say... er..."
He turns around and gasps.
"E-Envy?" He calls out.
All I can muster is a quiet "hi".
"Why are you following me. Here to kill me since you failed earlier?"
"I wasn't- NO". I blush a bit. I'm fucking things up.
"Envy. If you aren't here to kill me-" He begins.

I can't help it anymore. I walk closer to him. He gets a bit defensive, ready to transmute any second now. I walk up nervously. I do the only thing that seems right; I kiss him.
He resists at first, but goes along with it. The situation hits me, and I pull away.

"The hell was that for?-" he blushes.
"I'm- sorry" I'm about to head back when he grabs my arm. He kisses me back. Holy shit. This is the best feeling in the world. I wish this happened more often.

The situation starts to hit him as well, and we both pull away.

"Envy. We're enemies. I would never want to be-" he begins.
"Ed, I'm sorry. I don't know what the hell I was thinking. It just felt so right." I try to explain.
"Its all right. I felt it too. I don't know how, but I think I like you. I must sound fucking crazy"
His words make my stomach flutter.
"I, maybe, like you as well?" I feel uncertain and it shows. "It's just- we could never be in a relationship. There's no way-"
"Listen, Envy. I'm not sure what's happening right now, but I like it."

What is he saying? It's like he's speaking my mind. I guess I relate to him even more than I thought.

"Im sorry, it's just that I don't usually express my feelings. Y'know. Living beneath the surface of a city with nobody except my siblings and all that shit".
He laughs at me.
"Envy, I feel the exact same way. Except the being trapped in a basement part. Obviously".
At this point, I'm laughing as well. It's a feeling I've not genuinely felt in a while.
Our laughter dies down, and we're stuck in a stare of silence.
"Listen, Pipsqueak. I like you, I'll admit that. There's just no way we can be together".

What am I saying? I want a relationship. Im just... scared.

"Envy. I'm just as surprised about my feelings as you. I'm 16 years old and have never had a relationship. This is new."

"You're kidding, right? I'm so old I don't even remember my damn age" I blurt out.
I take a moment to consider how I've been living my "life" and burst of laughing. It's a new feeling, and I've been holding it in for so long.

"Ed, I'm just gonna tell you. I've told you more about myself today than I've told anyone for the past thousand years".

He blushes a bit. It really doesn't take much for him to blush, and he looks so damn cute while doing it.

"Envy. You seriously need help with your fucked up life. I need help with mine, too. I really think we could be there for each other."
He blushes again.
"Sorry, man. I'm acting really weird right now. It's just- well- I've never really been attracted to a guy before. It's really... new" He says in almost a whisper.

I can't help it. This is THE perfect moment. The moon is shining, the rain coming down at a rapid rate and most importantly, I'm here with Ed. We share another unspoken kiss. It eventually turns into us making out. I've never even done this before, neither has Ed.

I was actually doing pretty well. For my first time at least. I can't keep going, I feel like I'm violating him. He pulls away.

"Listen, Envy. I think we should just talk. Obviously we're pretty similar. Earlier today, my friend told me bottling up your feelings is unhealthy. She's right. Let's just talk".

Words cannot describe how much I want to cry. I can't help it. This is all happening so fast, and I'm not built to feel emotion. I'm built to fight. Why am I seeking love and attention when I'm a homunculus. I sit against the wall of a building, head in my knees, and let it go. Why does Ed have to see me now, at my lowest of all times.
He sits beside me, trying to make me feel better. It works. He hugs me, and I hug back.

"Envy-"
"Ed. I'm sorry. I hate nothing more than feeling vulnerable like this"
"It's normal to feel like this, Envy"
"FOR HUMANS MAYBE. I AM NOT A HUMAN" I say between sniffles. I break down even further, Ed pulling me closer.
"We can make this work"

This, for the first time in my life, have I ever felt truly happy.