I'm a Sucker for Pain

chapter 32

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CHAPTER 32

LONDON'S P.O.V

I'm not ready to label anything on my feelings right now..

Sejujurnya saya memang takut... I've never been afraid of my feelings until now...

I've never felt so possessive of a woman until now
I've never felt so jealous until now
I've never felt a desire as strong for any woman until now

That urge to make love to my little criminal anywhere, anytime... dan ya, saya akun bah saya cemburu...

No other woman can make me as angry
No other woman can make me as crazy

No other woman can make me smile as much
No other woman can make me laugh as much

No other woman can make my heart beat as fast
No other woman can make me feel that adrenaline rush

No other woman... until now...

And all of these feelings created the fear in me... I'm not ready to accept these feelings, but I don't want to lose her either...

Kalau betul, kalau lah benar... hati saya sudah jatuh cinta dengan Kimmy... what if she won't love me back? Saya tidak bersedia untuk itu...

So, can we remain - we are as we are now... in this moment.. no declaration of love, but still tied into a vow that will bind us forever... and along the way, we will gather all the confidence to love each other and the courage to say it outloud...

Malam menyisip ke permukaan bumi namun diterangi dengan bulan yang separuh mengembang... wajah Kimmy menempel atas dada saya terlihat sangat cantik...

fear creeping into my heart, fear of losing her again..

saya tersentak dari lamunan saya..
"do you know that there are vows in marriage..?" Kimmy whispered in my arms..

"are you afraid of the vows?" saya tidak mau dia tarik diri dari perjanjian perkahwinan kami...

"are you?" smart girl... memerangkap saya...
"why should i?" saya tersenyum sambil cium puncak kepala Kimmy...

And the question that I am not ready to face...
"to love and cherish...? shouldn't you be afraid to love and cherish me?"

Saya menatap wajah Kimmy... I hold my breath for a few seconds too long....
"who said I don't love you?"

Kimmy looked up at me sambil mengerdipkan mata beberapa kali...
"I don't remember you telling me you..."

Chup... saya kiss bibir dia... that sexy full lips... our kiss lasted more than 5 minutes...

"Lon... don... I can't breathe..." Kimmy menolak dada saya dan cuba bangun...

"Mmm.. Kimmy... I...." apa saya mau cakap tu...?

Pantas Kimmy bangun and put her clothes on...

"cepat juga..." saya bilang... saya lupa apa saya mau cakap tadi...

"gila you this... you tidak nampak ka macam ada small fireworks sudah dari Sutera Harbour..." Kimmy putting on her skinny jeans...

"I like your ass, little criminal..." saya tersenyum sambil menyalin pakaian saya juga... "such a criminal ass..."

"this ass..." she turned to look at me and gave me a gete look... saya pun tersenyum gete... "earned me a lot of money..." termati senyuman saya... 😒