Us Again (Russo Series 1)

Chapter 34

Chapter 34

He looked dashing with his black tux which I am sure, was made just for him. Even in full clothes, you'll know that behind it are the perfect cuts in the perfect places. He's not even smiling when his eyes met mine but my heart automatically beats wilder. Oh! How can I even tame effect on me.

It's almost a perfect view only if he is the only one I see. However, beside him is the girl... that become the face of nightmare personified only for me.

Crisana...

Hinding-hindi ko makakalimutan ang mukha ng babaeng ito.

Ang mukha ng babaeng kasama niya sa mga natanggap kong litrato taon na ang lumipas.

She's even smiling when our eyes met. Habang ako naman ay halos takasan na ng dugo sa katawan. Mabuti na lamang at nakaupo pa ako dahil kung sakaling tumayo ako agad ay baka natumba lang ako. Nanginginig ang mga binti ko... hindi ako sigurado kung purong galit lang ang dahilan.

Confidence is dripping on her as she talk with the other persons in our table. Maging si Jeremy ay binati niya. Hindi naman sila mukhang magkakilala dahil rinig ko ang pagpapakilala niya sa sarili.

"Hi... Crisana Dowell..." then she introduced herself to me.

For a moment my mind went blank for any statements, mabilis naman akong nakabawi.

"Samantha Fontanilla..." Primo's girlfriend.

I want to add that with my introduction. Like she should back off since I have all the right to fight for the spot.

Pero imbes na tapang ay panghihina ang naramdaman ko. Ibinaba ko ang aking kamay matapos tanggapin ang kay Crisana. I. Can't. Fucking. Believe. It.

I touched that dirty hand!

I just made a shake hand with this girl when what my insides want to do is to pull her hair!

At si Primo ay talagang nakatayo lamang sa kanyang likuran. Like he want to make sure that I won't do anything stupid, he eyed me meaningfully... though I can not understand its meaning... it seems unfanthomable for me. Or maybe my thinking really just became erratic.

I can't blame myself! And even if I can, I won't!

Walang siyang sinabi na pupunta din siya sa party na ito. At ang malala pa ay kasama niya ang babaeng ito!

She acts so normal. Animo'y walang alam sa kulong nararamdaman ko para sa kanya!
Ano hindi niya alam kung anong ginawa niya noon? Have she forgotten it completely over the year? Or it doesn't really matter to her? That for her that wasn't a big deal?

Kabastusan man ay hindi ko talaga nagawang tumayo man lang. Funny! Ang may kasalanan ay prenteng nakatayo at nakikipagtawanan pa sa ibang bisita habang ang ginawan niya ng kasalanan ay wala man lang lakas para tumayo at itaas ang sarili.

At si Primo! Anong kagaguhan ang ginagawa niya? Talagang hinayaan pa ang babaeng iyon na magpakilala sa akin! Hindi ko alam na ganikn siya ka-insensitive!

The program already started... people on the table settled down. The hosts are done with the opening and is now showing the first item.

I want to focus my attention to the stage to divert my feelings but it is too much for me.

It's too much!

"Are you okay, Sam? Is there a problem?" tanong ni Jeremy sa gilid ko.

Hindi na ako nagtataka kung bakit niya naitanong iyon. Hirap akong pigilin ang pagpupuyos ng damdamin ko at panatilihing pormal ang lahat. Siguradong tumatakas ang mga ito sa mukha ko.