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Part 16

POV Y/n

This morning I woke up alone. The police came to interrogate me, that was a bit annoying if you ask me. I told them I didn't know anything. I know damn well they can't handle the Zoldyck family. After they finally left my room, I sat down on my bed and drank some water. I'm bored, staying here all day.

John came in and sat down, looking stressed. He started ranting:

- Listen, Zach told me it was a bad idea and not to tell you anything but I can't keep it for myself. At first, I thought you were cocky and a bitch but I had the privilege to see you for the reliable, amazing, kind and generous you are. The group sees you as a sister figure and they all love you but to me you're more than that, I like you, I really do and like when you talk to me or call me nicknames and when we hug or cuddle or when you play with my hair, I can't put into words how much I love it. Like I'm all fuzzy and warm and I'm so comfortable with you. All this to say, I love you Y/n, and I know you might not like me like I like you and that we're group mates and all but I would do anything for you. Date me Y/n L/n

- Wait what?

- Never mind, Zach was right I shouldn't have told you, sorry I ruined everything, I need to go.

"

And just like that, he left. I was left confused. About two things mostly, first: He likes me? And second: Do I like him? I'm not an emotional type of person, I never dated or fell in love so I'm confused about what I feel for him. Is it love or maybe it's platonic, or romantic, why not both? I have no idea how to figure this out, and I'm not sure if I actually want to figure it out or not. I mean what if I like him, and then what? Paparazzi, crazy fans, complications, arguments, love getting in the way of my career. That's not what I want, I don't want my life to be like it was before, moving from house to house, running, no time for anything, no inspiration. I don't want any of that.

I laid on my bed and stared at the ceiling. One question plagued my mind: Do I like him? I mean let's think about it, I do enjoy talking to him and texting him and spending time with him, that could be romantic and platonic. I think he's hot and he's 100% my type but that doesn't mean anything, it's physical attraction, not romantic which means I don't like him. I enjoy physical contact with him of any kind, but that just means that I'm touch starved.

I'm being too logical, or maybe not enough, It's like I'm using my brain and not my heart to figure out if I like him or not. isn't that what you're supposed to do. Damn! It's so frustrating!

You know what? I'm going to think about it later, first I need to eat something and get my life back together, I haven't been doing anything for the past days I spent in the hospital and maybe getting some writing done will help me get my mind back on track. I stood up and went to the bathroom, I showered as best as I could and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked exhausted. After doing my skincare routine and hair care routine I put on a pair of sweatpants and a large t-shirt. I grabbed some money, put my slippers on and went outside with my phone. I called Hope:

"

- Hello Y/n are you alright?

- Yeah I'm good, I'll be able to leave in a week and I feel better

- Glad to hear that! Do you need anything, I was about to come visit you

- Bring me some fruits, and chocolate please, and my notepad, it's in my studio

- On it, I'll be there in 15 minutes, room 295 of the V.I.P section right?

- Meet me outside, I need some fresh air

- Alright, see you later

- Thank you sweetheart you're the best

- No problem