A New Chapter (BNHAxReader)

Chapter 79: I'm sorry family & friends

After going over to Toshinori's to update him on my condition, I went to Aizawa and Yamada's to fill them in too. Once I put the car in park, I went up to the front door and rang the doorbell. After waiting a few seconds, Yamada opened the door and greeted me with a smile.

"Hey, Y/N, what's up?" I didn't say anything, just threw my arms around him. He was surprised by the sudden action that he then slowly put his arms softly around me and asked, "What happened? Did Chikao do something?" As soon as he said that, I heard footsteps come running towards the door.

Aizawa then appeared and echoed in a tone that said he was ready to fight, "What did Chikao do? I'll beat him up if I have to." I let go and went to give Aizawa a hug. "Did he hurt you?"

I shook my head as I continued the hug, "No, he hasn't done anything at all." I then let go and looked to the both of them as I went on, "I'm sorry for acting so childish."

Yamada began to walk back into the apartment while Aizawa said after a sigh, "Come in." I then walked in and took off my shoes before I went to take a seat on one of the chairs in the living room. Yamada went to the kitchen while Aizawa took a seat on the couch.

"I'm sorry." I said.

He sighed in a tired way before saying, "There's nothing to be sorry about. You've endured far too much and you just didn't quite know how to handle it, which pushed you beyond your breaking point. It's alright; at least now you're on the up side to it all and what happened will be nothing but a bad memory."

I nodded my head, "I know, but I brought so much upon you guys. I've scared you two a lot and I'm sorry for that. I...Well..." I lost my train of thought. There was so much that I wanted to talk about and apologize for, but I couldn't seem to find the right words.

"There's no need to apologize anymore, alright? You're doing well now, so just focus on what's to come instead of the past." he said as he rested his chin on the palm of his hand.

I crossed my arms as if I was comforting myself and sighed in a disappointed way. "I feel like I've let you guys down; I mean, I know I did." I felt so bad that I could feel myself starting to get choked up. "I was supposed to be such a good hero when I was younger. I had to hide everything and show the whole world that I was at least sane." I brought up a hand to my chin and covered my lips with a couple fingers as I paused before continuing in a broken tone, "I truly hated it more than anything. I hated it more than it ever felt rewarding...but now..." I paused again to look away as I tried my best to fight back tears.

I stopped talking, which Aizawa then said in a soft and caring tone, "Let it out."

As soon as I heard him say that, I lost it. I was sobbing as I was trying to hide my face. I was able to get out, "I'm sorry I'm crying. I came over to apologize for being so bothersome in the past, yet here I am, blubbering to my parents as if I got my heart broken."

I then heard Yamada walk over from the kitchen and stood behind the couch. There was a few seconds of silence before he said, "You may think that you said it all, but you still have something pent up; that there's still some things on your mind. You know, we can help if you'd like, but that is if you won't go over the deep end once you put it out there."

I tried to stop crying by swallowing down the tears and saying in a hoarse tone as I looked down in shame, "I tried to quit being a hero. Some things that I've had to deal with were too much for me. Of course, that was when I was young. Now that I've seen all there is to see, I feel ashamed for thinking like that. I kept telling myself, 'Everything that you've worked for, everyone that has helped or looked up to me, all of that would be for nothing. I've disappointed them enough that I can't give up. I need to keep going, but at what cost'." I looked to them with tears slowly running down my cheeks, "It hurts...it still hurts..."