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Chapter 96: The End

A few years passed...well, it was more about a few hundreds of years more or less...same difference. Anyways, over the years I hadn't aged. I looked to still be in my early twenties the whole time. I survived many epidemics, pandemics, illnesses, diseases, wars, natural disasters, and in other words, almost anything. Everything had changed. If people from around the time I was born were to come back, they would have no clue as to what was going on. Everything was up there technology wise, to which even I could barely do anything. Though the times dragged me back a little, I had become the number one hero many times throughout the years. I hated it, but as long as the citizens felt safe, I didn't care; it also gave me a reason to forget the past for a couple hours.

Through that time I encountered a lot of loss. I was able to watch my kids get married along with the rest of the little ones that I was like family to. Almost all of the people that the quadruplets married was who I thought they were going to be, except for one. Shy Rini married Takehide. It was like they were destined to get together since they both were shy. Outgoing Rikka married reserved Otokari. We all knew about that one even though it took forever for them to confess to one another. Then Ryushi married Akihiko. That was another one that no one was surprised about. Now, the one that everyone was surprised about was that Reiji married Katsumi. Honestly, if Ryushi wasn't going to marry Akihiko, then I figured that he was going to marry Katsumi.

They all had children. Some had a quirk or two while others were quirkless. I did the best that I could to help with them all with becoming the best heroes that they could be; the same thing went with all of my friends' kids and such. I continued to work at UA for a long time until I reached well over retirement age. I thought about just continuing to work there, which I decided to carry on with. I only go back whenever they need help with something or if they need a chaperone for a trip.

Speaking of hero work, Melody became my sidekick. She was always by my side whenever I had a mission to deal with or any time that I went on hero duty. For only having immortality as a quirk, she sure could pack a punch. Her hand to hand combat skills were impeccable, yet she could never beat me.

Outside of hero work, she was the only friend I had, which was only because of her quirk. It turned out that our quirks were quite similar. She helped me through a lot, especially after watching everyone that I cared for wither away and die right in front of my eyes. First after Toshi it was one of my grandchildren to suicide, then Aizawa, Yamada, Chi, my friends, the kids, my grandkids, then their kids and so on. Don't get me started on the amount of cats that I've lost. I have attended so many funerals that I have lost the will to count and that I will no longer own a pet anymore. I had endured enough heartache that I just can't take it anymore.

Once my closest family and friends passed on, I went back to literal ground zero, which happened to be how I was when I lived alone when I was young. Sure, I still had family and I was their however many great grandmother, but they weren't my foster parents, my husband, my best friends, or my children. I had no one. Literally no one other than Melody.

When Chi passed away, I could no longer see the world in a colorful way. Ever since then, literally everything has lacked life and color. I never knew it but it turned out that he was the light in my pitch black world. Only if I could be with him again, I could finally be happy. The smile that he once loved went extinct upon Reiji passing away, which he was the last child of mine to stay around.

Honestly, watching everyone and everything that I learned to care about so greatly just fade away in front of my eyes, I just couldn't stand it anymore. I began to travel the world in the hope of finding something to permanently erase my powers, setting me free from the curse that society called quirks. I longed to see the people who I loved again, even if it could only be once. I was so desperate that I tried to develop a quirk, but that exploded in my face. When I tried to speak to the spirits, I was possessed by multiple entities.

When I gave up with that attempt, that is when Melody and I began to travel the world. Melody and I were in just about the same boat of suffering, but she had an easier time at letting people in and letting people go. She'd find a man every once in a while, sometimes even a woman, but I on the other hand, I could not find it in myself to betray Chi like that. He may be dead, but my love for him still burnt bright as ever. I would give anything to be in his arms again, even if it was just once for a few seconds. I would keep his clothing that he wore all the time in a special drawer, wearing certain clothes that still smelt like him when I was at my lowest.

I would shut everyone out, as if I had anyone to shut out. No matter what I did, Melody would barge right in and act as nothing was wrong. I didn't know if it was her way of telling me to man up or if she was just too afraid and didn't know how to help me. Honestly, if anyone wasn't someone that I missed dearly, I didn't want to be touched by them. I eventually became so cold and mean that Melody started to call me Endeavor while the regular media and such called me the world's cruelest number one pro hero.

Though I had that title, I still shut myself in my house, the one that I raised the quadruplets in. I couldn't bear to part with the house, not even the apartment that Aizawa and Yamada had rented. Far too many delightful memories still played between the four walls as though it was a cinema. The laughter and the sounds of sobbing still echoed. It was normal for me to be so desperate to see everyone again that I would use a quirk to recreate moments that I loved. Birthday parties and other gatherings from when the kids were little when everyone was accounted for and in good health.

Ah yes, I can see it now. The quadruplets chasing after one another along with Otokari, running around the upstairs loft area in the apartment, laughing and giggling as they teased one another. Us adults sitting at the dining table, talking about our work and what's new with our lives. Denki eating his fifth slice of cake while Shinso poked fun at Aizawa, and Yamada and Toshinori was concentrating on watching the kids, making sure that no one got hurt. Me sitting next to Chi, his one arm around me while his other hand is laying on his lap as I held it.

I would seriously give up anything to be with them all again. In the end, from everyone taking care of me while I was at me low, I would now take care of everyone's graves. Actually, I would go at least once a month to them all. I guess I spent most of my time there. Sometimes I'd talk to them while other times I would just sit there and take in the weather. I'd ask them questions like what they think is to happen while other times I'd just simply tell them how life was going. I hoped that they could hear me, but I guess it was beyond me if they could or not. After all, I wasn't able to successfully come up with a quirk to come in contact with them.

I guess that in the end, I came to the brutal conclusion that I was meant to be tortured. That's what living felt like and that was not just my mental illness speaking. Time is an illusion, life is just a rigged game, and love is meant to crush you from the very beginning. For as long as I can remember, I have been in pain; starting with living with my biological parents in America, from struggling with myself and the monsters that lived in my head, up till now with having to suffer alone. I can't do it anymore. I no longer have the will to live.

So please, I am begging please, if anyone finds a way to stop being immoral, please let me know.