A New Chapter (BNHAxReader)

Chapter 53: My fault

Once I appeared at Toshinori's apartment, I found myself at the area where you take off your shoes. I kicked off my boots and dropped my bags by the door before running into the apartment as I pushed my hood down. I found him sitting in the living room on the couch with his hand over his left side. I quickly crouched down in front of him and asked frantically, "What's wrong?"

His breathing was rough as he said, "It hurts to breathe, not to mention that it's hard to breathe too."

My mind raced, "Umm, well...wh-where does it specifically hurt? Is it just where your injury is or-"

"It's all over. Just take me to the ER, I'll be fine there so you don't have to waste time and watch after me like a nurse." he said, cutting me off.

I didn't want to waste time to argue with him, so I just went with it. "Okay, do you have all that you need?" He just nodded his head before I instantly put on our shoes as I teleported us to the emergency room doors. I helped him walk in since he was still holding onto his side.

When we made it to the front desk, the receptionist asked, "What is the emergency?"

"He's having a hard time breathing." I said.

"And it hurts to breathe." Toshi added.

"Alright, I'll send a nurse this way immediately." she said before doing a couple things, which then a nurse came quickly with a wheelchair and took him away.

I sat there in the waiting room for about an hour before a nurse came out to get me. Toshi was sitting on the hospital bed with an oxygen tube under his nose. I right then and there wanted to curl up and cry...or die...maybe both. Anyways, I pulled up a chair to the side of his bed and asked in a solemn tone, "What did they do?"

He tried his best to sound like his usual upbeat self, "Oh they just ran some tests which we now have to wait for the results. One thing that they do know is that my one lung isn't functioning like it should, so I'll be here a while."

"When did you start to have trouble breathing?" I asked.

"Probably about Thursday. It didn't bother me too much then since at that point it was just annoying and happened from time to time, but as the days went on, I tried to call you but no one answered." he explained.

I instantly started to cry. The overbearing emotions that I was carrying before the whole thing with Toshi was bad enough, but then knowing that the missed calls from him were because he needed help pushed me to the edge.

"I'm sorry, Toshi! I'm so sorry! I-I was-I-"

He cut me off by putting his hand on top of mine and said calmly, "Please, Y/N, there is no need to be sorry. I understand you're busy and it happens. It's alright, there's no need to cry."

I started to beat myself up, "Yeah, busy out on a fucking boulder in the middle of nowhere, loathing in-"

"It's okay." he persisted.

"No it's not!" I exclaimed, "If I hadn't been so stupid by leaving everyone behind and going to the field to be alone as an attempt to try and make the depression go away, all of this would have been avoided!"

"Y/N, calm down, alright? It's going to be okay. I'm here now and-"

"Stop saying that! It's not okay!" I felt like I was losing my mind. I put my hand up slowly to my forehead and went on quietly, "I could never live with myself if I knew that I caused something bad upon you. I would travel to the ends of the earth to find a way to remove my quirk for good and die. I cannot live with the feeling knowing that I hurt you, and now I have by going off without a trace and staying like that for a few days."