Julio's eyes

Fights

Julio's POV:

School is a pain. It's hard being in a fake relationship. The only one who knows is Hayden, Thomas, and my family. I wish I was older and I wish I was in an open relationship.

Hayden likes to plan what we are going to look like in public.

"Okay, so when we're walking you have to put your arm around my waist" Hayden says
"Do we have to do this?" I ask
"Yes, if we wanna look like we're in a real relationship!" She says.
"Why does it matter to you?" I ask
"Julio, what do you think I do on the weekends? I spend time with my friends and have sleep overs. At 3am everyone asks people about the details in their relationship. It's what keeps us strong. Some of the girls think you're keeping your distance and that you're cheating on me because we don't look like we're in a relationship. You think it's hard being in a closed relationship. Well with you by my side I don't have an actual boyfriend. So I'm sacrificing a lot for you. And I wouldn't if you weren't my first friend here ever." She says
"Oh.... Yeah.... Sorry...." I said.

We continued working on it for a while. We decided that kissing was too far and that wouldn't be apart of our fake relationship. After much practice we were ready to finally go hang out with friends. Hayden was pleased with the way I was and she said that it seemed like we were in a real relationship.

Devon was the only thing I could think about. I decided that I needed to fake breakup with Hayden and just say I'm not in a relationship. I think it would be better. That night I texted Hayden.

"Hey, r u awake?" I asked
"Yeah, what's up?" She said
"I think we need to break up." I said
"Okay, we need to figure out the details, make a story." She said
"K, you broke up with me after we had a fight and decided it would be best to break up. We're still friends tho." I replied
"Okay. Sounds good. Gtg ttyl." She responded.
"Bye." I said

Another week passed by and I feel as though Devon doesn't miss me. I feel like he isn't sad that I'm gone. I grab my phone and text him.

"Devon, is something up with you?" I asked
"No, what's up babe?" He replied
"The only time you ever say you miss me is when I say it. Something is going on, are you cheating on me?!" I asked.
"No, I'm not cheating on you!" He replied
"Then what is it?!" I asked
"It's hard missing someone when you have someone else to care for. Not in a romantic way though." He said
"Oh and who is that person?!?" I asked
"IT'S WILL!!!! HE'S A SUICIDAL CLOSETED GAY BOY LIVING IN A CHRISTAIN HOME!!!! IM HIS ONLY OUTLET AND CARING FOR HIM IS A HELL LOT BETTER THAN BEING LONELY AND DEPRESSED ALL THE TIME!!!!!! SO SORRY IF I DON'T ALWAYS TELL YOU I MISS YOU EVEN THO I DO, BUT IM NOT GONNA LET WILL GO!!! HE LOOKS UP TO ME, HELL HE LOOKS UP TO YOU!!!!! SO GIVE ME SOME SLACK!!!" He replies. I read it and I'm in amazement at his passion for making Will's life better.
"Devon, I'm sorry. If I has known I would've understood." I said
"Julio, I did tell you, but you didn't listen." He replied.
"I'm so so sorry. Is there any way to make it up to you?" I asked
"No, but I accept your apology." He said.
"I gtg, love you!" He continued.
"Night babe!" I said.

That night I laid in bed thinking of Devon and Will. He needed to be in his life, we really do affect people around us.