The Best Part of Me -Jack Avery Fanfic.

Chapter 35

I'm hella jumpy at my mum's apartment. It's terrible to say, but this place seems to send me into a dark state of mind and I revert to some of my old tendancies.

That includes not answering my phone, which Jack actually called my mom when I had accidentally ignored his calls and messages for a almost an entire day.

"Addison, it's Jack." My mum creaks open my door as I'm just sitting alone in the middle of my bed lost in my mind. "You okay?"

"Mmhmm." I nod, holding my hand out to accept the phone. She comes in and hands my her cellphone, the concern not leaving her face.

"Hey baby, how come you're not answering?" Jack asks as mum closes the door to give my some privacy. Cece's door's been removed so we can monitor her.

I shrug to myself a little, holding the phone to my ear with my shoulder. "I donno."

He's quiet for a minute and I start to just drift again; zoning out.

"Is something bothering you?" His voice is quiet.

"No..."

"Well... what are you doing right now?"

"Nothing." My eyes burn from staring at the wall for so long. "Just sitting on my bed doing absolutly nothing."

"Are you okay?"

I try to think about it. "I... donno..."

"What do you mean, baby girl? Are you feeling sick or anxious?"

I shake my head, hugging my legs to my chest tighter and resting my forehead on my knees. Cortez is laying beside me.

"No, I just..." I don't know what to say.

Jack's keen on figuring this out, though. "What is it, baby? Maybe I can help."

"I just... I don't know. It's hard to explain." I mumble.

"Can you try? I wanna understand, sweet heart."

I take a deep breath.

"I can't... my brain's hella fogged and I don't think I've even had a clear thought all day." I close my eyes. "I've been just staring at a wall all day."

There's silence on the other line again.

"Maybe it would help to get some fresh air?" He asks softly. "Maybe go for a walk with your mom?"

"Cece can't be alone yet." I answer, swallowing hard. "This isn't the first time this happens."

"Oh?"

I reach down and stroke Tezzy's head.

"Can we video chat?" Jack asks.

"Hmm- yeah." I hang up and open the app on this phone only to realize it's my mom's. I set it aside and grab mine off my old desk.

I answer as soon as the icon pops up, and I see my handsome boy lounging in his hotel room.

"Hey beautiful." He smiles charmingly. "Now, you said you felt this way before?"

I lay down on my stomach and prop the phone up against the wall at the head of the bed. "Mmhmm... a couple times here, a few times in the prison, and a lot at Kyle's."

"Does something trigger it, or does it just kinda happen that way?" He inquires.

I stare at the wall beside my desk. I think for a moment and then get my answer. "I think both... I know when something bad happened sometimes I'd get like this. Or when I felt like it was too much to handle."

"Gosh, Addy, I wish I could be there."

I look at Jack now, who's studying me with those big brown eyes of his. The concern written on his face just makes me want to cling to him.

"I'll be okay." I pat the bed for Cortez to crawl up close to my head. "I'll snap out of it soon."

"I hope so, sweet heart. I love you."

I genuinly smile. "I love you too."

Jack just starts to talk to me, even though I know he sees that I've lost focus again. I wish I could listen. God, I wish I could. I start to feel guilty that I can't follow what he's saying and that I'm just staring absently at the wall.

Nobody's ever done this in reaction to whatever this is. Usually they leave me and come check on my every now and again. But Jack keeps talking to me anyway, just for the sake of talking to me.

That fills my heart up as my throat clogs with the guilt of feeling like I'm being disrespectful to the one man in the entire world I could love the way I do him.

I break, bunching the blankets up to my face as I start to sob silently; muffleing myself in the comforter.

"Hey, Addy? Is everything okay?"

"I'm soo sorry, Jack." My whole body shakes as I try to keep my voice level. "I'm sorry."

"Babe, why are you sorry?"

"Because I love you and I was soo zoned out I didn't hear anything you said."

"Awe, Addy, look at me."

I reach up and prop the phone back up where it fell.

"It wasn't anything important. I just was rambling." He runs his hand through his hair. "Please don't cry, baby girl. I love you and I promise as soon as I get home I'm gonna give you the biggest hug."

"And we can cuddle in our bed all day?"

"If that's what you want, then that's what we'll do." He smirks. "And hey, if it involves more than just cuddling then that's even better."

I start to giggle, wiping away the dampness even though tears still fall down my cheeks uncontrollably. "You bet your ass there will be."