he's the love of my life so no it won't get better.
jessica's pov
"julie, we need to talk. so, after skipping school, missing a test, you decided to sneak out even though
i told you to go to your room and study?" i heard my dad ask as i walked over. "i know. i'm sorry." julie said as i made my way over.
i smiled at my dad and he gave me a slight smile and then looked back at julie, "yeah, you keep saying that. if you'd just...let me in, i could've been excited about tonight instead of having this conversation
we both hate. why didn't you tell me you were in a band? and jess why didn't you tell me you were in a band with reggie? i thought he broke your heart?"
"It all just happened so fast. These last couple of weeks have changed my life. When I play music, I feel so much closer to mom." julie told him. "And I love that. You know I do. But your tía is right. School needs to come first." my dad told julie.
i nodded, "yeah, but i made a commitment to this band and i won't let them down. and he did break my heart but i would let him do it all over again because i love him." i started to tear up.
my dad pulled me into a hug, he didn't say anything and just rubbed my shoulder and talked to julie. he knew he wouldn't be able to help me.
"I know, but without the band, I would've never made it back into the music program. They played with me and jess when I was trying to earn back my spot." julie told my dad. "They did?" he asked.
"I think this is my thing, Dad." julie told him. i pulled out of his hug and looked up at him, "i think it's mine too." "Well... I'd be a jerk of a dad if I took that away from you. Look, if you're gonna stay in this band, you need to keep up with school, and you need to keep me in the loop." he told us.
"Really?" julie and i asked at the same time. "yeah." he told us and chuckled. "Thanks, Papa." julie said and laughed.
"Hey, so that lady at your show, she was,
like, some sort of manager, right? Could've been a big deal." my dad wondered. "Who knows Hopefully, she'll get to see us play again. Which I will tell you about." julie told him.
"Oh. Yeah, you will, 'cause if I ever catch you
trying to sneaking out again, or if your grades slip, I'm gonna pull the plug. Or whatever it is that makes those holograms work." my dad told her and let out a chuckle.
"Do I ever get to meet these guys?" my dad asked the looked at me, "i mean i meet reggie and he seemed....." then he just stopped and was cut off by julie and i started to sniffle.
"Probably not. They don't even live here. and reggie was just visiting his family. It's... kind of confusing. But being seen really isn't their thing." julie told him.
"You kids and technology. It's... definitely beyond me." my dad said. "Definitely beyond something." julie muttered and i sent her a look.
"Well, whoever and, uh, wherever they are, they brought my little niña back, so as far as I'm concerned, they're like angels to me." he then paused, "i mean except reggie because an angle wouldn't break my sweet little girls heart." my dad said and i looked at him.
"it's okay dad, he messed up but you know i'm gonna move and and we will get back together and it won't be now but we're meant to be. he's my ross." i tild him. and he frowned as he knows that i only would say that when i'm serious.
just then tiá ran out of the house panting. "woah....." my dad said. "This house is haunted! We have got to go. Now!" my aunt exclaimed. "What happened?" julie asked. "what wrong?" i asked.
"Victoria, I know you want us to move, but this is a little extreme. I... I told you, we're OK." my dad told her. "I'll let Carlos explain what happened. He refuses to leave, but if movies have taught me anything, when a house is haunted, you run." tiá said and then ran off.
we all let out a sigh and went into the house. "i'll be in my room if anyone needs me." i said and then went up. i changed into some comfy clothes and sat at my desk. i started crying over reggie again. i really missed him. i didn't know what to do so i started writing a song.
"I got my driver's license last week
Just like we always talked about
'Cause you were so excited for me
To finally drive up to your house
But today I drove through the suburbs
Crying 'cause you weren't around
And you're probably with that blonde girl
Who always made me doubt
She's so much older than me
She's everything I'm insecure about
Yeah, today I drove through the suburbs
'Cause how could I ever love someone else?
And I know we weren't perfect but I've never felt this way for no one
And I just can't imagine how you could be so okay now that I'm gone
Guess you didn't mean what you wrote in that song about me
'Cause you said forever, now I drive alone past your street
And all my friends are tired
Of hearing how much I miss you, but
I kinda feel sorry for them
'Cause they'll never know you the way that I do, yeah
Today I drove through the suburbs
And pictured I was driving home to you
And I know we weren't perfect
But I've never felt this way for no one, oh
And I just can't imagine how you could be so okay, now that I'm gone
I guess you didn't mean what you wrote in that song about me
'Cause you said forever, now I drive alone past your street
Red lights, stop signs
I still see your face in the white cars, front yards
Can't drive past the places we used to go to
'Cause I still fuckin' love you, babe (ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
Sidewalks we crossed
I still hear your voice in the traffic, we're laughing
Over all the noise
God, I'm so blue, know we're through
But I still fuckin' love you, babe (ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
I know we weren't perfect but I've never felt this way for no one
And I just can't imagine how you could be so okay, now that I'm gone
'Cause you didn't mean what you wrote in that song about me
'Cause you said forever, now I drive alone past your street
Yeah, you said forever, now I drive alone past your street."
i wrote and sang out. i started crying and i couldn't stop. all the sudden luke popped into my room, "hey jess what do you think...." he started and then turned around and saw me. "what's wrong?" he asked. i shook my head, "no everything's great, just great." i said very sarcastically.
he nodded, "well okay that's good." i gave him a look and he started laughing, "jess i was messing with you i'm not that dumb." he said. i let out a laugh, "that's debatable." i said.
he smiled, "there's that smile. now what's wrong?" he asked. i shook my head, "just reggie, i want to forgive him and get back together but i don't know. and i wrote this song about how i feel and i just don't know, it's too much." i told luke. he read the song and than sat next to me.
"hey jess, it's going to be okay." he told me. i was now cry again, "no luke, everyone says that but they don't get it. i will never be okay, i will never get over reggie. he's the love of my life so no it won't get better." i said balling now. he looked at me and just stayed by me until i fell asleep.
and little did i know, reggie was sitting outside my window and heard everything i said. he was crying now because he missed me and never wanted to hurt me.
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