He's Dating the Campus Nerd

Change Forty - Two : The Last Straw.

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CHANGE FORTY – TWO : THE LAST STRAW.

Sabrina's POV :

Napatingin ako sa phone ko na kanina pa nagvi vibrate. It was Nathan, he was calling me for like 20 times already simula kaninang umaga. Napa buntong hininga ako saka pinatay ung phone ko.

I rest my face on my palm while thinking of the things that would happen.

Hindi ako pumasok, and it was new. Never pa kasi akong umabsent sa mga klase ko ngayon. I just don't have the courage to see him right now.

Ang sama ko sige, I'm avoiding him completely for almost 2 weeks. Hindi ko kayang makita siya kasi hindi ko maintindihan ung sarili ko. I'm frustrated and I don't like that.

Its already december 22, 3 days na lang pasko na. I roam my eyes at the park, I drove all the way to the place where they can't find me or so I thought.

Knowing Nathan, I know he'll search everywhere to find me, I'm just hoping na hindi siya mapadpad dito.

I close my eyes as I hug myself, I'm feeling the cold breeze touching my skin. "I don't know what to do anymore." I whispered to myself. Hindi ko mainitindihan ung sarili ko. I have to admit, that these past weeks, I didn't imagine na magiging ganon ka sweet si Nathan.

Nagawa na niya sakin yon before nung kami pa pero iba eh. It's kinda weird that the cold-hearted-monster I knew was now completely different.

Siguro dala na lang ng nangyari pero its just that, hindi na siya ung dating suplado, dating walang paki sa mundo. He's changed, it was a great one though. But am I being mean kung iniiwasan ko siya ngayon?

Everytime na makikita ko siya, bigla na lang akong aalis or magtatago. Whenever he picks me up at home, hindi ako lumalabas or dumadaan ako sa likod ng apartment para lang hindi niya ko makita. I'm avoiding him because I know deep down in me that I'm falling for him again.

Its not as bad as it seems, I know but I just don't want to get hurt again.

Nagsimula akong maglakad, trying to think of something to escape this madness. There were so many thoughts running through my head, it's making me insane.

The thoughts of 'What if's'

The thoughts of 'Chances'

And

The thoughts of 'Broken'

I've had enough of my life, I've had enough of my problems. Ayoko ng madagdagan pa, I need to rest and I just can't fall in love with the guy who's the reason for everything.

Tumingala ako at tinignan ung mga ulap, it was 5 o'clock in the afternoon, there were some people wandering like me. Ano kaya ung mga iniisip nila?

Is their life as miserable as mine?