im saved, finally [an "adopted by" phan ff]

034

*this is where the sadness start
da feels will be real btw ;-;

I can't

*Dan's pov

I can't...
I can't take it anymore...
Not one bit...

I got off my bed and went to my drawers. I open the drawer where I kept my miscellaneous items. I found the small plastic bag where I kept my blades that I used when I had depression.

I looked at it.

This is it
The bag I haven't touched since I've met Phil
But guess what...
He's not here

I grabbed the bag and jetted to the bathroom. I don't know why I ran, I...just...did.

I opened the bag and held my bare arm over the side of the sink. With my other free hand, I opened the small plastic bag and got the blade that I used to always use.

The flashbacks
They are all coming back

*Flashback

Another day of my shitty life I thought
There was a rumor going around the school, saying I was gay.
I am....kinda
Im bisexual.
All the kids always bully me, and I can't take it anymore 
I got my blade out of my drawer and went to the bathroom. I held my arm over the sink
One cut for being bisexual
One cut for being weird
One cut for being myself
The warm blood dripped down my arm. I felt like I was gonna pass out.
But I didn't...

*Flashback over

I got the blade and put it over my wrist.
One cut for stress
1
Two cuts for Phil
3
Those dreams,
They were messing with my head
I went crazy with the blade all of a sudden
7

My wrists were bleeding out like crazy

It felt like I was about to pass out

My vision got darker around the edges
In only a matter of seconds,
I was consumed by darkness

dis chapter hit u hard
didn't it ;)

Woah...two chapters in only one day!1!1!
just for you guys :)
Also cause I have a really busy weekend ahead xD
Okieeeeee
guudbai beautifuls