C L (First Version-Complete)

6: The Start

"Relax Lucian... Just breathe in and breathe out. That's it tesoro (sweetheart). Just listen to what oniisan says..." He whispered. His hot breath fanned against my nape as I let him move behind me. My knees trembled and sweat dropped from my forehead. My muscles began to strain. The pleasure of release made my mind hazy.

"You're stretching me too much..." I murmured.

"Am I? Does it feel good?" He chuckled and gave me a long and ruthless thrust.

"You're pushing to hard," I grunted.

I licked my lips and pushed back. He had put me in so many positions and my lower back was beginning to get sore. He put me in a more convenient position and spread my legs. His harsh thrusts were becoming more and more unbearable.

"I don't want to do exercise anymore oniisan," I deadpanned. My legs were spread out in a v-shape while my upper torso was up. Lucius was pushing me forward and instructed me to reach my toes. He noticed that I move rigidly even when walking. It was like my movement was always controlled.

"Your body is too stiff. You need to be flexible otouto!"

For the past five days Lucius had patiently tried to teach me how to feel, what to feel, and why to feel certain emotions in certain events. He had also attempted to teach me how to control my powers in which I was also failing miserably for a reason that I was abusing the opportunity to let out what I have. It was tickling me to the heart. It made me ecstatic. I can understand why Otousan and Okaasan forbid me to use it. I was still in a euphoric place even when our training for my power ended earlier in the morning.

I opened my eyes when Lucius declared that I should take a break. The sight of the forest was refreshing to see. It no longer had the rotten smell and the decaying trees. We went around the forest and made sure to not yet revive Yggdrasil but other than the big old dying tree that stood in the middle of the forest, the woodland was already full of life. Lucius said that  Yggdrasil would be the finale of our mission here.

"Lucian, what do you feel now?" He asked. I stared at him for awhile to look for an answer. He told me that he would ask me what I feel three times a day and I was required to answer honestly. It was very difficult to answer him at first. I had to lie at first tries and I also attempted to say "I feel nothing" but Lucius was very persistent. He was so persistent that he would go to the extent of kidnapping me, forcing me to be in this situation, making me feel things that contraindicated what was taught to me and hugging me.

He just doesn't stop embracing me and telling me how important I was in his life. He pampers me like a child and even with the training that my parents had put me in...I couldn't apply it to this man and to this world that he had exposed me in.

During the past nights I attempted to escape. Lucius was sleeping soundly and he wasn't embracing me like he used to. I got up from floor and stared at his sleeping face. After contemplating if I should come back home to my parents or not, I stood up and got out. Everyone was already asleep. No one was wandering out and the sound of crickets and other bird-like creatures created a quiet and relaxing ambiance. Argo stood awake outside of the house. I can hear him munching on the grass with his back facing me and with his tail swishing side to side. I silently exited the village and began to walk.

I don't know why I chose to go back. I don't know why I tried to leave oniisan but what I do know was that I couldn't do it. Just thinking that I would go back to that monotone life in the castle with my uncaring parents made me halt in my steps. I glanced at the moon that just stared back at me. The bright ruler of the night was just there at the dark skies as if it was asking me if I should really return. It just waited for an answer from my confused emotions.