carina and maya -

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I would look down at the clouds and they look like a bed and they look soo soft like nothing could get hurt inside of those clouds. Like I could sleep in, like I could rest, like I could love...
If I could just jump into the clouds...

of course Maya had that dream today, flying across the world to trackmeets. just simply wanting to lock herself in one of those clouds.

she pressed her head deeper into the pillow when she noticed she woke up.
Carina was still fast asleep next beside her.

(mayas pov)

I needed a minute realizing why I wasn't in my own bed, nor in my girlfriends.
but then the flashback of yesterday came back, the way my dad showed up at my door.

-throwback-

I tried to avoid looking at my dad while catching my breath.
As per usual I finished first.
"That wasn't enough kiddo" he glanced at me, with a serious look and I tensed up.
"I know dad, I'm sorry dad... But I still came in first... I said, hoping this would light up his mood.
but instead he just walked away and I knew I would get ignored for weeks... getting up earlier and lots and lots of workouts.
because it didn't beat my own time...
-

I searched for my phone, I can't remember I charged it, so I guess carina must have remembered it.

it was already 10:02 but I still was very tired.
then I saw the multiple missed calls from carina....

and one new message from her, sent yesterday 22:21

why would she...
I opened the message and saw the picture of us laying in bed.
omg did really just fell asleep on her...

I smiled...
I put the picture as my new lockscreen and thought about how carina is my personal cloud she is protecting me from getting hurt... and so I drifted off again.

(carinas pov)

"Good morning little sleepyhead"
"I'm not quite awake yet..."
she mumbled into her pillow.

"hungry?"
she stretched out and nodded, giving me a light smile.

I got up, quickly changing into my clothes from yesterday.
"are you coming bambina?"

"just... one minute..."
how am I supposed to say no? I sighed and nodded yes, and she closed her eyes again.

they felt warm, comfortable, they felt like home, they felt like protecting me.... the clouds... I wanted them to protect me....

"You're not gonna fall asleep again, let's get some food okay?"
I gave her a forehead kiss and she rubbed her eyes, slowly getting up now.

Vic luckily left us some porridge before she left to go to work, I have to work at 4pm so it will be a relaxed day... at least if I ignored that I still have to get Maya to talk to me...
for now we ate breakfast, not talking about yesterday.

"Can we go to your place then?"

she asked me just after she finished eating...

"I don't wanna go to my apartment..."
she looked so sad... even if she tried to not act like that today.

I drank a zip of my coffee, thinking what would be best, but if it would help Maya, I'll do anything.

"Of course we can..."

(mayas pov)

Carinas apartment felt way more safer than my own right now, even though I loved my apartment.

We sat on the couch and I knew carina expected me to talk... but I just sat on the couch staring into nowhere. I don't even know how to begin...

"So... what happend before I came home yesterday? I know you have something on your mind Maya..."

she slid closer to me and I took her hand, I needed something to hold on to.

"My dad came, he somehow must have noticed I'm not at work and so he wanted to check on me..."

"why would he know you weren't at work?"

carina asked confused...

"he likes to check on me... he always did. everything. he controls everything about me..."

I paused... trying to figure out on how to put it into words

"so then he came and asked why I wasn't working and I told him I wasn't feeling good.
then he laughed at me... I tried to explain it to him but then he just slapped me...

"he did what?" she angrily asked me.

"it's not that big of a deal carina... he overreacts some times."

"that's not overrreacting Maya, that's aggressive behavior. and you didn't even do anything. this is not okay..."

"carina he didn't meant it like that calm down..."

"how can you not mean it?"

"carina... he is like that... it's okay, please..."

I let go of her hand, standing up as I felt my mind spinning again.

"but you don't slap your daughter over nothing"

"I told you he didn't meant it..." I raised my voice and now carina stood up as well...

no no please it can't end like last time as well.

"okay.... Maya can you sit down again please?"

"no"

"Maya come here... I didn't mean to hurt you... can u go on?"

"what else do you want me to say...
I love my dad, he made me to who I am.... I won a gold medal because of him, I'm the first female fire captain because of him."

"i know you love your dad... I love my dad as well. but that's exactly the reason why I didn't noticed how bad he was for me and Andrew."

"Carina what are you talking about now. my dad loves me, he wants the best for me. God damn who are you to just..."

(carinas pov)

I myself needed much time to understand and accept how my dad was and why it was the best for me and Andrew to leave him behind...
I can understand Maya... but she seems to used to all of that so she doesn't even recognizes how abusive her dad is...

"Maya, your dad hurted you... and that's a fact okay. and I don't want people to hurt you. that's all."

"He did it once, cause he overreacted"

"but he still hurted you... I saw how anxious you were when i came... were you scared he'd came back?"

I really tried to not trigger any more anger but Maya tensed up even more, her knuckles turning white from the fists she's been making to control herself.
she walked through the whole living room and I knew she just wanted to run away again. but she knew if she did, she probably would loose me so she controlled herself.

"a bit yes..."

"Maya..."

she lost the grip in her fists, standing in the room and I immediately came to hug her... knewing she'd give in concealing her emotions at any second.

"Maya I've got you... come sit down"

we went to the couch, I slowly caressed mayas arm.
I felt a tear on my chest where Maya pressed her face in.

"thank you for telling me."

"you're my cloud carina" she said to me a few minutes after she calmed down again.

(mayas pov)

I smiled, she made me smile and I don't know how I did deserve her...

"what do you mean?" clearly she had no clue what I meant

"I'll explain to you... but for now, bacimi? ba-"

"we gotta practice the Italian - but yes"

my lips on hers and all the stress left my body again.

"bambina I have to go to work soon will you be fine here?"

"I will"

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