(TW)
(Throwing up,anorexia,self-harm mentions)
*Tommy POV*
(EDIT: this chapter just kinda went from 1 place to another so just act like i wrote the transition)
I'm sat here while Tubbo is on the phone to will and i gathered that he would be outside for a while talking to will about me and what ever else they had to talk about and i remember all that food I had eaten this morning at wills house, i started the hear the voices i would hear when ever i ate food,
'You're fat'
'You eat too much'
'You look ugly when you eat'
'Stop eating'
'You dont deserve food'
I could feel my breathing speeding up again, i ran into the bathroom of the coffee shop, shut the door behind me, i sat there a moment thinking of what would happen if i did this, what would Wilbur do, what would Tubbo do? Would they be mad at me? Would they send me away?
I shuck them out of my head and stuck 2 fingers down my throat and made myself gag, i could feel the food that i ate earlier today coming back up, so i did it one more time then waiting for a few second and then the food came up and into the toilet, i sat for a moment, just thinking, then i remembered, tubbo, SHIT! I need to back before he realises I'm gone!
Just then i hear a knock on the door.
"T-Tommy? Are you okay?"
"T-Tubbo?" I said shakily, i saw the door open a bit as he peaked his head in to see me on the floor next to the toilet, i forgot t lock the door... "Tommy? What happened?"
"Oh i-i-i" i stuttered a bit trying to think of an excuse "i must have ate something this morning that my stomachs didn't agree with" i said trying to force a smile on my face, i hated this so much, apparently the forced smile didn't trick Tubbo because he said "Tommy... you don't need to lie to me, plus i can tell when you lie, I've known you for ages, you can trust me okay? Just tell me what happened" i paused for a second looking at him, he dosent know that i know about the video he and Wilbur sent to the police i looked at him dead in his eyes "Toby. I'm fine okay lets just go back." I said in a cold voice. He knew i was being serious because i never called him Toby unless i was annoyed or mad with him i was getting annoyed because I wasn't ready to open up about this part of me to him or Wilbur yet
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Fanfictionafter years of abuse from tommy's parents and that inevitably leaning to mental health problems, when his parents are finally taken away, what will tommy do? where will he go? what will happen? will it get worse for him or will it get better? TWs wi...
