Monasterio Series #5: Risks and Chances

Kabanata 38

Kabanata 38

Unfair

"It's confirmed, Mr. Trajano. The owner of that SUV is Janus Climante. He lives in a condo around Bellaire, Makati."

From the screen of my laptop, I lifted my eyes and stared into a far distance as I heard that statement from my secretary.

"Give me the exact details about him right away."

"Yes, Mr. Trajano."

I leaned and rested the back of my head against the swivel chair. Pinagsalikop ko ang mga kamay ko at pumikit. I'm trying to calm my mind by making myself busy with these paperworks but it's no use. Ania’s face keeps on flashing in my head. Sinusubukan kong tanggalin siya sa isip ko pero sa tuwing gagawin ko iyon ay mas lalo ko lang siyang naaalala.

It's been more than a week since she left the hospital. A week since I last saw her. She doesn't want me around. My presence makes her irritated and uncomfortable. I want to understand her actions towards me because for her, I'm just a stranger and not her fiance. Hindi siya ang klase ng babae na madalling lapitan lalo na at hindi ka niya kilala. Mas nakakagulat pa nga kung magiging mabait siya sa akin kahit na hindi naman niya ako kilala. 

I tried to visit her one time but she didn't go out to see me. Tanging si Tita Rian lang ang humarap sa akin. It's alright. It should be alright. Alam kong pansamantala lang ang lahat ng ito. Palagi kong iniisip na pagsubok lang ang lahat ng ito at matatapos rin hindi kalaunan.

Things will fall into its places and my Ania will go back to my arms again.

I unlocked my eyes and grabbed my phone over the table. I turned it on and went straight to the messaging app. Nasa bungad ang pangalan ni Ania at iyon agad ang pinindot ko.

Ako:

Don't skip your lunch.

I still send her random texts everyday. Kahit na wala naman akong natatanggap na sagot mula sa kaniya ay hindi pa rin ako tumitigil. I want to remind her that I will always be here for her even if she doesn't want me to.

If there is one thing I'm sure right now, that is I would never get tired of loving her. No matter what circumstances we are facing right now. I will still love her with everything I've got.

As soon as I sent her that message, I stood up and walked out of my office. Sumakay agad ako ng kotse ko pagkarating ng basement. My secretary already texted me the exact address of the person I have to meet.

It should be done since Ania met that accident but other important things were always consuming my time.

Minaneho ko ang daan patungong Makati. Almost an hour and I'm already standing in front of a cheap condominium. Inalis ko ang suot na salamin at tiningala ang gusali na para bang pag-aari ko ito.

Tss. I don't own cheap condominiums.

I've gained attractions from women who were passing by me when I descended my gaze. Nagsimula akong maglakad patungo sa entrada at hindi tumingin sa kahit na kanino. I'm not a sucker of beautiful women. Hindi ko alam kung hindi lang talaga ako interesado o wala lang sa isip ko ang makipaglaro noon pa man.

I always wanted serious relationships. Sa buong buhay ko, dalawang babae lang ang nagawa kong seryosohin at mahalin. First was Trish, and now... Ania.

Nga lang, mas matindi ang pagmamahal na meron ako para kay Ania. I thought what I had for Trish was already deep and unmeasurable. Nang mahulog ako kay Ania, hindi ko akalain na may mas ilalalim pa pala ang pagmamahal na kaya kong ibigay.