collateral damage 🔞 - COMPLETE

•seventeen• before (M)

⚠️⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING! Scenes of violence and forced sex. If you are sensitive to this subject matter, please skip this chapter. ⚠️⚠️

~~~~~Haerin

My babies were born 3 months ago. They are the most beautiful things I've ever seen. I've been home with them full time trying to adjust to being a mother. Beom-seok comes in the evenings to bring me food and baby supplies, but never sleeps here anymore. I guess I can't really blame him. Who wants to be woken up in the middle of the night by crying if they don't have to be.

I'm stressed today because he told me that he'll be bringing a babysitter to stay while I start at the club. I haven't forgotten what I heard that night, but I thought he'd changed his mind since he's been nothing but loving since then. Why would he actually bring me there and give me to other men? I must have misunderstood...

I finish breastfeeding the babies, and they are sleeping in their crib. I love watching them when they're sleeping. They cuddle together to not lose the connection that started in the womb. Mi-Hi is sucking her fingers, and Ye-Jun likes to play with his hair. Gosh they're so cute. They both have Jeongguk's eyes though, and it reminds me of him everytime I look at them.

The bedroom door opens and I signal to Beom-seok that the babies are sleeping. He smiles softly at me and gestures me to come meet the babysitter. I get up and walk downstairs with him. The girl looks about my age, and she's beautiful. I smile and bow to her, which she returns. Her name is Yuna, and Beom-seok tells me that she also works at the club. On nights when I'll work, she'll be here with the kids. I'm not really given a choice in the matter, and I'm afraid to fight back so I nod along.

"Use your words babygirl... Don't make me angry tonight Haerin."

His voice is low, and I see Yuna flinch at his tone. I feel myself shaking because I know what happens when he's mad.

"I'm sorry Oppa... I understand."

"Good girl."

His praise feels genuine, and he comes to give me a hug. Yuna watches him embrace me, and I see a sadness in her eyes. Is she like me? Does he take care of her but make her work in his club? I wish I could ask, but not with Beom-seok in the room.

"Yuna will bring you upstairs to get you dressed and ready. You can show her the babies and where to find the things she'll need. I'll be here waiting, so don't take long. Make sure you're shaved, and clean before you get dressed. Got it?"

"Yes Oppa."

I lead Yuna upstairs into the bedroom where my kids are asleep, and show her where all the supplies she might need are. I head to the bathroom to shower, and realize that Yuna has followed me. She holds her finger in front of her lips signaling me to be quiet. I do as she says, and she passes by me to turn on the shower. She stands close to me and only speaks in a whisper.

"i will take good care of your kids. please don't worry."

"thank you."

"i know you are nervous, but the best thing you can do is follow oppa's orders. don't push back, trust me."

"what is going to happen to me? he hasn't told me anything."

"we don't have time for me to say. just follow his instruction and it'll go easier. now let's get you ready. where's your razor?"

We spend the next 30 minutes making sure I'm shaved and my skin is smooth with no stubble. After that she takes the bag she was carrying and brings me some sexy, flimsy lingerie. I cringe at the g-string underwear, but put it on. The dress is tight and short, and I hate it. Yuna can tell that I'm uncomfortable, but she whispers a reminder to not let Beom-seok see my feelings.