collateral damage 🔞 - COMPLETE

•fifty-nine•

~~~~~Haerin

Warm lips moving on my forehead, and a sweet voice bring me gently back from sleep.

"Haerin-ah... Wake up baby... I have to leave for the stadium."

His soft tone makes me hum, but I flutter my eyes open. I try to speak, but it only comes out as a whisper making him chuckle.

"what time is it?"

"It's 2 o'clock baby... The van is waiting for me. There will be another van for you, Noona, and the kids, in a couple hours."

I move to sit up, but soreness surges through my body and I drop back onto the bed.

"aaahhh... jeongguk it hurts..."

"What hurts my baby? Did I go too hard?"

"mmmm... everything hurts... i shouldn't go."

The chuckle that leaves his mouth makes me look at his proud smirk. Jerk.

"Baby... I'm so sorry... But you know that you promised the kids. And I want to look into the audience and see my beautiful girlfriend... Please... Don't make me sad like that..."

His emotional blackmail, combined with some sweet kisses, makes me agree to him. He helps me into a sitting position, and we share a loving kiss.

"I love you Haerin-ah... I'll see you at the concert. Make sure you dress warm, because it gets chilly after the sun goes down. Ok?"

I nod, and hug him to me tightly. I let go after a minute and he boops my nose cutely. I want to hold him here, and cuddle with him under the covers forever, but I look away and whisper a goodbye. If he can tell I'm feeling upset, he doesn't show it, and takes his leave from our room. I can't be like this... I need to toughen up and not be so emotional... I'm just so scared...

Ignoring my anxious feeling, I stand on jelly legs and make my way to the closet. I find a nice shirt, and take a zip up hoodie from Jeongguk's side of the closet. It smells like him, and I find it soothes me, while I'm getting more and more emotional. When I'm dressed, and I have fixed my hair, I head downstairs. Naeun Noona is feeding the kids, and I smile seeing them all dressed like little BTS fans. I know Jimin and Jeongguk had brought them tour shirts, and they look adorable. Mi-Hi has her t-shirt like a dress with a belted waist and a pair of leggings. Ye-Jun just looks like his Dad. His shirt is oversized over a pair of cargo pants and the super expensive sneakers Jeongguk bought for him.

I grab my phone and take a couple pictures to send to Jeongguk. In the kitchen I pull out my birth control pills and realize that I'm off a few days. Did I miss one, 3 random times, or 3 days in a row? My head begins to hurt some, as I try to think it through. Knowing that I'm not going to figure it out because of missing hours, I rest my head in my hands on the counter.

"Are you alright? Do you not feel well Hae?"

"No... I'm ok... I think I need to stop by the pharmacy though."

"Why?"

"I realize I've missed a few days of my pills... I don't want to complicate things right now, so I should get a morning after pill..."

"Oh... Have you talked to Jeongguk about it?"

"Why would I? He's about to leave for months Unnie... I won't burden him like that. I do need to talk to him about using a condom from now on though..."

"I don't think he's going to think it's a burden if it happens... But you should definitely talk to him. Maybe before you take the step of a morning after pill."

"I guess... I think I need to buy it either way though. Our relationship is still new again... "

"Alright. We'll stop on the way. Is that all that's bothering you?"