collateral damage 🔞 - COMPLETE

•seventy-seven•

~~~~~Jeongguk

"I was surprised to get your call Jungkook-ssi? Is everything alright with Haerin?"

"Oh! Yes Dr. Kang... Thank you for taking time though. I just have a few things that I needed to talk about."

"Ok... What is on your mind?"

I feel really uncomfortable getting ready to open up about this, but then I think back to how she seemed so different during our BDSM moment. If it's going to be something that will harm her, I need to know.

"Jungkook-ssi?"

"S-sorry... I'm just... It's difficult to talk about with you."

"Let's try this... Close your eyes, and just talk... Pretend I'm not here, or you're talking to someone else. I won't interrupt."

I close my eyes, and take a deep breath. Thinking about Namjoon Hyung, who is the one I would normally go to, I dive ahead.

"A few weeks ago, Haerin asked me to become her Dominant. She told me that she wanted to submit to me, and have me control her in bed. I was reluctant because of the things she's been through, and we were supposed to talk about rules and limits, but never did. I did do some research though, and thought maybe becoming a 'soft Dom' would be alright. I won't ever be able to degrade her, or harm her... I don't even think I could restrain her physically... a few days ago, I found her being kind of silly with one of my Hyungs, and I felt like it was a perfect time to maybe try out being her Dom... It was a great experience... At least for me... She was very responsive to it too, so I believe it was what she wanted. When we were finished, I made sure she was taken care of, and I brought her in the bath. It struck me there, that the submissive space she was in reminded me subtlety of when she became Raven... Like it was not how she truly is, although she was smiling and content... I started to worry. I don't want to do things that will weaken her in any way... I guess I don't know if I did the right thing..."

Taking slow breaths, trying to calm my pounding heart, I continued to sit, waiting to hear that I screwed up. When she made no comments, I peeked at Dr. Kang to see her smiling at me.

"Is there anything else Jungkook-ssi?"

"No..."

"Can I ask you some questions?"

"Sure."

"Was there anything that happened you might think crossed a line?"

"I spanked her..."

"Did she cry?"

"No... She seemed to accept it as a punishment she deserved. But I don't know if I'll ever be ok with her thinking that way..."

"Hmmm... If she had cried, what would you have done?"

"Stopped immediately!"

"When you were spanking her, what did she do?"

"She counted... And moaned..."

"So she got turned on? And you're worried that this is a signal that she is backsliding... That there is something wrong in her liking a little pain... That maybe you'd do something to trigger her to split... Am I right?"

I feel my face and ears burning, but I nod my head because it's exactly what I'm afraid of.

"You said this was a few days ago? How has she been since? Has she been different?"

"No. She's been fine."

"Have you had sex since?"

"Ummm... Yes."